So.... I didn't do everything I wanted to do today.
I didn't go to the workshop
and
I didn't do my vlog
Some days I mis-plan stuff or life gets in the way, and today was one of them days . However if I'm completely honest to you, I feel scared!
I'll explain!
I didn't go to the workshop
The fact I've been giving the chance to write for a textile magazine, something which gives me goosebumps whenever I think about , is completely bonkers!
How is this even happening to me? When did things suddenly start going my way?
Its that reality which shakes me and makes me want to hide! But I guess this is only really the start, and I need to get myself focused if I want it enough.
I just never imagined it would happen to me
I didn't do my vlog
Ok, this is going to sound really silly!
I'm excited about doing the vlog :) I've always been interested by YouTubers and so I know what to do but....
Again, I'm scared! But not of the camera, I'm scared of you and what your judgement is of me. I'm simply scared you won't like me.
When I first fell in love with textiles, everyone was complimenting my work and they liked me for it. Which naturally made me happy, and it was nice to know that people liked me and its something I've never let go of.
The same with vlogging, I'm worried you won't think I'm funny or cool, or you just won't like me!
For 2013
I seriously need to remove this fear of not being liked and just 'charge the mountain'
Sorry for this disappointing post
However I do have a friend who is an amazing singer!
Daisy Kartreiber doing a cover of Pumped Up Kicks by Foster The People <3
Sophia x
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