Not the usual introduction in my blog posts, but I feel like I really need to tell about this encounter and how its made me feel about myself. I think its definitely a sign of maturing and something I hope that you will keep in mind when in the same situation. Listen and Learn <3
Okay so basically there's this guy at my uni who I've known for a while and has seemed really nice whenever I've spoken to him face to face. He's an attractive guy and is quite cool, however he also hangs out with this slightly rude/big ego group of people. Nonetheless, I added him on facebook and we've been speaking everyday since. Heres the part I really want you to focus on - Since adding him and speaking to him, I've developed some feelings for him; almost like a 'spark'. Well.. I did until just now.
From a fan of 'He's Just Not That Into You', I've learnt a lot about this supposed 'spark'. The bottom line is - It doesn't exist. Its merely the excitment of drama and that mysterious/not knowing feeling of whether a relationship will blossom or not. Its like being in love with the drama instead of the person you're trying to win over, and usually, it ends up that we get hurt - the ones who feel the spark in the first place. Well not me, not this time!
As I was saying, this guy is really nice! But our conversations are a light awkward and he doesn't seem to be good with deepness of feelings; which isn't really what I'm look for. I think I've just been engrossed in the drama and that wonderous feeling of whether something will work out of not :) However, I've recognized it and have saved myself a whole lot of heart-break! Wooo!
P.S - If you are on the search of that special someone, consider who makes you feel great. Who gives you goosebumps? Who is the guy that you constantly wonder about or love hanging out with? You never know, Mr Right might have always been there :)
Update - My Feelings on University
Today I had a breakdown! :D
No seriously, this is good news! I'll explain...
I've been told that coming from being the head of your class in textiles throughout GCSE and A Level, and then doing the Fashion/Textile pathway in a Foundation Diploma is a whole different ball game. Suddenly you're at the same level as everyone else and its blooming hard work! But its worth it :) However, to do the transition from A Level to Foundation level, you have to have a break-down, which is exactly what has happened to me today.
I've been so down about my work but I feel a lot more better :) Theres still loads to be done however!
Going to be a tough couple of weeks
Sophia x
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