Monday 31 December 2012

Who I am on the last day of 2012

 
Who I am on the last day of 2012


 
Student Representative of Fashion and Textiles at University for the Creative Arts
 
Intern for Zoe Murphy
 
Textile Journalist for HAND/EYE Magazine
 
Studying at University for the Creative Arts - Foundation Diploma in Art and Design
 
Planning to make bags for children (Ages 6-12)
 
My New Years Resolution
 
 
1. Only use facebook to see what people are up to & add news on what I'm doing

(If you have any questions, or just want a chat my email is - sophialakewood@hotmail.co.uk
and my Skype username is Sophia Fagg!)

2. Don't get caught up in a relationship. If I'm not happy, stop it.

3. Focus on getting big in textile magazines and getting the textile business rolling! 

4. Just be me
Unfortunately in my last relationship, I wasn't sure of who I really was so I wasn't at my best for the other person; which I admittedly regret and wish I could go back now and just be myself.
I feel that being single for just over 2months now, I know who I am and I've become the person Ive wanted to be. Sometimes its best to lose something important to you,
 because then you've got the chance to look at yourself in the mirror and decide what you need to change.
Who do you want to be?
 

5. Spend time with family more
This is will be the last year that I'll be here all the time, so its time to make some memories with them.
 
6. Say Yes
All the best opportunities and lessons come easier when you're more open-minded to receive them.
 
 
Sophia x


Sunday 30 December 2012

Re-introducing Myself


Hello! :)

As the new year is just around the corner, and the fact that the whole point of the blog is to follow my journey throughout  2013, I feel like I should re-introduce myself to everyone who has either been following this blog from the very beginning (Late November) or has only just discovered my story.




                                                 Who I am and The Reason behind The Blog

- In Love with Textiles and Creativity <3 <3  
 
- Hoping to make it big in the Textles Industry with a business specialising in bags for children (years 6 to 12)
 
-Finally found myself as a person in 2012 and want to focus on my career
 
- Loves exploring and travelling <3
 
-Wishes to live in the 50s <3
 
-Loves writing and hoping to write for a textile magazine alogside the business
 
- Not ready for relationships!
 
-Obessessed with Dr Seuss films and quotes <3

Where I am at the moment

- Will be an intern for Zoe Murphy in Margate, which starts from the 16th of January

- Currently studying at University for the Creative Arts on a Foundation Diploma in Art and Design course.


 
So this is me in a nutshell, trying to get to where I want to be in my life!
 
I learned there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead, others come from behind. But I've bought a big bat. I'm all ready, you see. Now my troubles are going to have trouble with me. - Dr Seuss <3
2013 - Bring it!

Speak to you on the 1st of January!
Thanks to everyone who has been following! and to all those who are new, high-five <3
 
Sophia x

Saturday 29 December 2012

Thinking Realistically (29/12/12 part 2)

So I told you about my idea of making bags for children this morning! After spending the day pondering over it and going back and reading my business books, I've decided to take it forward :)

Although this may seem and feel like a break-through, I'm still no further than I was a couple of months ago with the business - still no final products made.

Time to be optimistic!

I do, however, have ideas for accessories
I do have prints, fabrics and designs to make the bags
I have a book which can help me make the bags

Sorted!

I've completely changed the business plan and have dropped all help from a friend

I plan on making 10 bags so look out for updates on them!

Now, time to get on with UCA work

Sophia x

Late Night Ideas

Like many people when in bed, I tend to think a lot more than usual and so end up getting inspired! I swear most of my great ideas come from when I'm thinking at night or in the bath, and sometimes its in sudden inspirational moments which get me going and then I'm away.

Well last night I had another one of these sudden inspirational moments, and then, yet again, came the Whats and Ifs.

Seeing as most of my work is very brightly coloured, and my designs are very youthful and cheery - What If I specifically make bags for children?

I've already stated in another post that I want to use my business to also help children with disabilities, as well as children in third world countries and just any child in need! So this would be a great opportunity to do exactly that!

- Need to change business plan
- Need to research in bag designers

Happy Happy Happy

I won't go into details but sometimes when waiting and fighting for something over several months, its always best to not give up, dedication defeats all :) Like I've found out this morning


Sophia x


Friday 28 December 2012

Dedication vs. Lazyiness

Lazyiness

My day began at two o'clock in the afternoon today -.- so I was in a bit of a annoyed mood!
(I seriously need to get back into routine!)


However....

Dedication

I did actually delete facebook today! I've seriously had enough of being on there and the fact that I get the temptation to speak to my ex is just not helping, so its nice to have some closure!
You never know what will happen in the future :) but hopefully these feelings will have gone by then.

Time to focus on work and textile business!

Here's to a brand new me! :D

Inspiratonal Music! - Simon Webbe - No Worries <3
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=KkB6DNRgXYs

Sophia x

Thursday 27 December 2012

Post-Christmas! Hello!

Hello! I've very much missed writing the blog!

 I hope you all have had awesome christmas'! That does include eating far too much, being far too merry and staying up far too late. I did. Same time next year I think!

Update
Now the christmas season has ended, sort of, I have started to go back to doing my work and its coming along.. ok. I've booked a whole day of drawing and painting for tomorrow anyway! Which means an early night tonight, something which I haven't done since the last day of term.

Amongst the piles of chocolates, art equipment and girlie toiletries, I got a couple of textile books! (yay yay yay yay!) All of which I've now read and am proud to put into my collection, however there is one book which has really inspired me; even made me think twice about the textile business and what else I want to do.

The Bag Making Bible by Lisa Lam


Thoughts and Feelings

After flicking through this book, I read the "About Me" part about the author who not only runs a business selling bag making supplies, but also writes articles for textile magazines! Which then, naturally, got me thinking about the products for the business.


First came the Whats and the Ifs.... -lightbulb ping- What If I made my own bags but used the textile shoes I've made and 3D birds as charms and accessories for the bags! 
Besides, a girl can never have too many bags!

Second came another idea. I love writing this blog because its about textiles.. maybe I could also think about writing for textiles magazine? Maybe all I need is an internship with a textile magazine as work experience... What If?



This nicely follows on to the next point on my agenda!

My New Year's Resolution List

As I was thinking in my bath earlier (sorry! I get my best ideas in my bath, strange - yes!, helpful - yes so bare with me!) I really need to lay down some resolutions, as I have quite a lot, so here goes

1. Delete my facebook account
This is actually in progress, so I'll be converting to email and Skype!
(If you have any questions, or just want a chat my email is - sophialakewood@hotmail.co.uk
and my Skype username is Sophia Fagg!)

2. Don't go looking for love, when the time is right it'll come to you
This sounds like a pretty easy one to do, but the reality is, its not. I have a couple of guy friends who have been interested but despite talking to them, I'm just not interested enough back. I need to focus on my textiles this year! jeez Sophia!

3. Get as much textiles into my life (craft clubs, meeting new textilers, etc)
I really need to start getting a great big grasp onto getting more skills and techniques, and improving the ones I have already. Its going to be a busy year, but the more I surround myself with textiles the better!

4. Just be me
Unfortunately in my last relationship, I wasn't sure of who I really was so I wasn't at my best for the other person; which I admittedly regret and wish I could go back now and just be myself.
 I feel that within the 2 months  I've been single, I finally know who I am and I've become the person I've wanted to be. Sometimes its best to lose something important to you, because then you get the chance to look yourself in the mirror and question whether you're happy with yourself; and if not - Who do you want to be?



5. A new resolution! Do textile magazine internships as well as general textile internships


-sighs- Right, I've been keeping all of that in my head for four whole days! Now I can relax

Speak to you tomorrow!

Sophia x

Sunday 23 December 2012

Merry Christmas!

Hello!

This is going to be the last post til the 27th!

Just wanted to say that I've loved writing this blog; especially as it allows me to write down some of my thoughts and feelings!

Thank you to everyone who has been reading the blog (Big Thanks to Luke! who I know has been subscribed! :3 <3)

Today..

As I was actually focusing on my work today, I found a textie designer who I really wanted to share with you guys!

- Claire Nicolson - specialises in print products
http://www.clarenicolson.com/



Please go and check her out :) Her work is based around vintage and she actually finds vintge objects which she inspires from.

So yeah...

Oh! I've also started one of my new years resolutions early!



I'm deleting my facebook account, after 4 years or so of having it. I seem to be spending too time much time on there and I've found that it doesn't really do much for me anymore. I guess you could say I've grown out of it :)

I hope you all have a lovely christmas and I'll see you on the 27th!

Much Love! <3

Sophia x

Saturday 22 December 2012

Nothing to post

Completely unrelated to textiles and this blog but will be starting UCA work tomorrow

Much Love <3 and please comment on these posts! I would love to hear about what you think and how i can improve the blog!

Sophia x

Friday 21 December 2012

DOOMSDAY! or nawt.

Despite the whole 21/12/2012 scares, today has been AWESOME!

Family Time <3

Spent half the day spending time with a family member who I don't see often, which meant getting christmas presents early :) It really reminded me of my relationship with them, and how much I actually loved them! Christmas time always gets me in this mood :3

Its at this time of year that I really treasure family and friends, and appreciate all that they've done for me throughout the year; although it may not have come across that way at the time. Its the best time of year to look back on, and to make goals on what we should improve for the up-coming year.

Merry Christmas Everyone! <3 :3

Plans for 2013

The last half of the day was spent with my close friend, Luke :3 who is awesome! Despite talking about the business and getting excited about what 2013 could offer, I've realised how much I really need to do. I'm really going to have to push myself and squeeze every little time and effort into it. I'm not really sure if I'm strong enough, but I know how much I want it; so I guess thats a start.


After-thought

Its funny how after a day like this, suddenly life hits you with a situation when you least expect it!

An ex has entered the scene....

Sophia x

Thursday 20 December 2012

Being a "Hermit" apparently...

Keeping you in the know

I just want to apologize for yesterdays post. It was extremely depressing and completely irrelevant to this blog. Sorry guys! Much Love <3

Not a lot happened today, just focusing on getting my uni work done.

- I am now half-way through my to-do list! wooo :D

Only got to focus on my new project now, which is titled Floribunda. I don't know why its called that to be honest but its all about flowers. Which despite being totally cliche! I'm qute excited :3 

Keep an eye on updates about that! The end result is supposed to be Floral Printed fabrics,  so I'll definitely be putting pictures on here!

Erm... YesWoman Update

Second day

I know it hasn't been very exciting but that is just how it is at the moment

However, here is a picture of me looking tired, make-up less and yeah..


Time to finally leave this bedroom and spend time with family <3

Ciao!

Sophia x

Wednesday 19 December 2012

Project YesWoman: Day 1...or something

Update

I haven't done much today.
Woke up at half 11... and finished off one of my projects.. and thats it. -sighs-
But!! I hope to finish off a lot more tomorrow!

Project YesWoman: first day

Due to the fact I haven't done that much today, I didn't go out and get inspired.. However I'm still very much in the mindset of being open to opportunities which is good :)

I'm sorry I haven't got much to say today, but I would like to thank everyone who has been reading the blog :) so major love for you guys! <3

Being Honest

If I'm honest, today has been one of those days where i haven't been properly focused and have been thinking about the previous relationship. So unsurprisingly, I'm in a bit of a down mood but I'll be okay :)

It doesn't help either that I found out not too long ago that he had bought my christmas present before we broke up. He messaged me asking if I wanted it. Its a Singer Sewing Macine :/ A vintage 1920s Singer Sewing Machine with the original bobbins and feet, and case.

But what do I do? do I still take it despite the fact i'll have memories of him? or do I go with my heart and take it because I've always wanted one -.-

Let me know what you think! because I really need some advice :/

Sophia x

Tuesday 18 December 2012

Yeswoman!

Update

I can't remember if I told you, but my internship with Zoe Murphy starts on the 16th of January. I'm so excited about! Expect photos and lots of tips during January!

Started UCA work today and actually got to tick some stuff off my to-do list. Woo!!

YesMan....YesWoman!

I'm sure many of you have seen the film 'YesMan'. (if you haven't, then seriously why not? rent it! borrow it from a friend! Whatever! Just watch it!) I love the whole message and the way opportunities appear when you say yes to things. Which is something I learnt today, and hope to carry on doing at the start of the new year! I might start doing it tomorrow... Yes!!!

So.. here comes a part where I have to tell you about a part of my life ..

Basically my sister has autistic-tendencies, so she has borderline autism which can be tough to live with. She goes to a specialist school which educates children with issues like that .

Anyways, as its christmas time, they had organised a carol service which I was asked to go to and I had said yes; which I normally wouldn't have done.

So we got to the church, sat down and the service began. Amongst all the individual classes, and their friends and family,  standing up and singing, then sitting back down and listening to them tell the story of Jesus, there was one class which really moved me. The class was called 'The Rainbow Room' and they were all in wheelchairs, holding umbrellas specially for a dance routine. None of them could speak, so the music and singing was all coming from a cd player. As they were doing this routine, not being able to speak, not being able hold the umbrella themselves or even get up, I suddenly remembered that those children weren't ever going to be able to do the things I want to do, or have the kind of the futures that we plan for.

I felt really appreciative of what I have, what I can do for myself and for others. I'm sure any other person would have those feelings in the same situation, but its really made me more determined for my textiles business and own future.

If anything, I want to do something for them :/ The ones who can't talk, or walk or be able to think for themselves. I'm going to look into ways my textiles business can help children like the ones in 'The Rainbow Room'  I just want to try and make a difference for children like that, and of course, for my sister who I love dearly. She makes me so proud, especially with the fact she does a lot of paintings and drawings, and she's just her. She's a true inspiration :) <3

Project YesMan

Begins Tomorrow!!!

Sophia x

Monday 17 December 2012

Love Rekindled by Emily Pontin


Love Rekindled: A Tom Hiddleston Fanfiction

A/N: Hello darlings, having been stressed out with my personal statement for university I a dream that I was at university, I couldn’t have told you which university it was although for this story I`m going to say its Southampton Solent where I really want to go. My friend was in her room crying because she had just seen her boyfriend kissing some girl. This was where the idea came from and I thought why not make it as though Tom was her boyfriend and the one that kissed the girl. It goes back from different time periods from their time at university in 2002 to the year 2013 when Thor 2 is released. This is what I came up with. Hope you enjoy <3

Prologue: November 2013

I never thought I’d see him again, yet here he was strolling down the red carpet greeting fans, smiling for photos and talking to press and I was now one of them, working for one of the most famous film magazines in the world: Empire.

I’d got the job a couple of years after university having to work in a few offices before getting the job I so wanted. It was worth the wait though, I loved my job, and it was everything I wanted and more. Not because I got to go to all of the red carpet events and meet and interview celebrities, but because I generally enjoyed writing and researching about the next celebrity I’d interview so I could watch their filmography.

I couldn’t believe he was here, and so was I, and I had to interview him! As he approached the press pen near where I was standing waiting to interview him he looked over at me and smiled, a wide smile showing two pearly sets of white perfect teeth. I smiled back, all these memories flooding back to me. Tom cheating on Charlotte, his performance of Romeo and Juliet I had to go and review. Charlotte catching me and Tom in a very, lets just say awkward position and the many times we spent going to the theatre and cinema, taking long walks through the park, talking about anything and everything.

I was pulled out of my trance by a “Thankyou, Mr Hiddleston” from an interviewer next to me. “My pleasure” Oh my god, his voice, the many a times he sat reading and quoting Shakespeare to me. It all came flooding back. Then I realised I had been staring at him the whole time lost in thought. He walked over and stood in front of me. I stood admiring his gorgeous lean frame and perfect face. Dressed in a white shirt, his sleeves rolled up to his elbows, a back waist coat, black trousers and dress shoes and a black and blue striped tie. His blue eyes shining, gorgeous cheekbones and lips and a few days stubble grown around his chin and top lip. All these feelings came flooding back.

“Hello Sophie, darling. It’s so good to see you. I knew you could do it” he leaned over the pen and kissed my cheek. “Tom” I whispered, not quite believing it. Quick women, professional film journalist mode. He’s just another actor. But he’s not my conscious screamed back. He’s Tom Hiddleston. Tom, your Tom. He smiled pulling away. I coughed trying to regain my composure and be professional.

“Mr Hiddleston, it’s a pleasure” I smiled.

“The pleasure is all mine my dear, and please, call me Tom” he smiled.

“Okay, Tom. You’ve played Loki twice now, first in Thor and The Avengers, and now Thor 2, what is it like to be playing him a third time and how has he changed since both Thor and The Avengers?”

The interview went well. After I had asked him the last question and he’d answered I thanked him. He smiled before saying “A pleasure darling”, he leaned across the pen again kissing my cheek and whispered in my ear “Meet me after the film outside the main entrance, I’d love to catch up” before kissing my cheek again and moving along the line to as yet more interviews. I continued doing my interviews, interviewing Chris Hemsworth, Natalie Portman and director Alan Taylor before making my way into the theatre to watch the film with the other journalists. I couldn’t help but let my mind wonder walking into the theatre about meeting Tom afterwards.


Hello dears this is just a fill in chapter and back-story to Sophie getting into Southampton. I know Tom went to Cambridge but for this story and as Southampton is the university I really want to go to I set it at Southampton. I unfortunately do not own Tom Hiddleston just the story and characters of Sophie and Charlotte. Hope you enjoy. Written for my fellow Hiddlestoners and Vanessa Bauer. Enjoy darlings. I love you <3


Chapter 1: February 2002

My phone bleeped. 1 new email.UCAS: Something has been changed on your UCAS application. Shit shit, shit! Id spent ages filling out my UCAS application, trying to get my personal statement right. I lost count on how many drafts I had done but after about ten drafts I finally had a decent draft I was happy with. I wanted it out of my hands and sent off before Christmas so I didn’t have to worry about it. What’s done is done I thought. The hardest thing about my personal statement was that I was applying for two separate courses at five different universities and it was rather difficult to combine both courses into my personal statement. Magazine Journalism at Southampton Solent and Bedfordshire, Creative Writing and Journalism at Middlesex and Creative Writing at Twickenham and Winchester.

I went and looked round Southampton and completely fell in love with the place, with the course. Everything. I knew when I was fourteen that I wanted to go there the course really appealed to me. I just hope I had done enough to get accepted.

I’d gotten offers from Middlesex and Twickenham already, I liked the idea of being in or near London so I could still attend my premieres even if I didn’t get into Southampton. Plus the idea of being able to sit down Southbank and write really appealed to me. I loved London. I always had and always will so if I didn’t get Southampton I would be happy to go to either of the others I had been accepted to.

I hated getting UCAS emails, my future depended on them. I opened my UCAS track and screamed when I saw what was on my screen. Conditional offer: Southampton Solent University to study Magazine Journalism. OH MY GOD!! I went crazy when I got that email. My dream was going to come true. I was going to Southampton Solent University to study Magazine Journalism!

The next few months consisted of making my final choices accepting my place and trying to get my head round the fact that at the age of nineteen I was going to be moving away from home, to a place I barely knew but had fell in love with when I saw it, on my own, having to cook for myself and fend for myself and pay my own rent and generally look after myself. Ok so I was scared and excited at the same time, especially as I was one to get homesick easily. Me and my mum had always been close, but even more so since I was eleven when dad left us for a few years. I remember that time clearly in my head. I had just started secondary school and he wasn’t around. That was strange. When a few of my friend’s parents split up I thought oh yeah, it won’t happen to me, mum and dad love each other and always will. How wrong I was. In the long run however, it’s made us closer. Mum and dad are as close as they used to be and are still pretty much together; dad just doesn’t live with us.

It was going to be weird saying goodbye to my childhood friends and family and home. I’d lived in Dover my whole life, although I hated the town it would still be sad to leave.

Over the next few months I made the most of the time I still had at home by catching up with my friends, well the friends I had that were still lived in or near Dover anyway, most of my college friends had gone to university last year. Lucy was at Brunel in London studying Film and Television Studies, Sophie was at Bournemouth studying Public Relations while Megan stayed local in Canterbury studying Multimedia Journalism. I knew I wouldn’t make friends like them again, and I didn’t want to. I wouldn’t change them for the world.

The good thing about going to Southampton would be that I would be near Sophie if I needed her if I got homesick. Me and Sophie were alike, in many ways than one. Aswell as having the same name, we were both really close to our parents, as was Lucy but with Lucy being the oldest out of the four of us at twenty one she seemed to settle in rather quickly.

September soon approached and in a couple of weeks I’d be at Southampton Solent studying the degree that I’d been dreaming of for five years in hope of getting a career as a magazine journalist. Over the next few weeks I got the last minute essentials that I would need including silly things like toiletries and duvet bedding and kitchen utensils.

The day id been dreading and couldn’t wait for had arrived. September 23rd, the day I was moving to Southampton to university. We got an early start packing up everything in the car ready to leave for nine in the morning to get there for twelve and start moving my stuff in.

When I found out my flat building and number I started adding people in my flat and course on Facebook to get to know them beforehand. I found that I would be sharing a flat with a couple of girls, Charlotte and Emma and a boy called Tom. Me and Charlotte got talking and swapped numbers so we could text each other on our way there and when we arrived to meet up once our families had left.

I text her when I was halfway there letting her know where I was and that I was nervous and excited and that I couldn’t wait to meet her. She too, like me was a huge film fan and would be studying Film while at Southampton. I liked the idea of hanging about in each others flats or in the common room watching films and having a gossip. I had a feeling that me and Charlotte were going to be as close as me and Lucy are. I was right, even now after all that’s happened were still friends.


We arrived at about half eleven and started unpacking my stuff. My room was small but had the essentials I needed, bed, desk, pin board and en-suite with a toilet and sink. It wasn’t like I was going to be in my room much anyway I’d most likely be in the library doing work.

Me, mum and dad went out to lunch as mum wanted to make sure I’d eaten before her and dad left me on my own. I was starting to get teary as soon as I got there. Knowing that they would be leaving me in a few hours was horrible. Although I was only a few hours away it was going to be weird not being in the same house as mum anymore, her not being there if I needed her. We had a nice lunch before walking through the park and back to my flat.

When we arrived back mum and dad said that they had better get going to dodge the traffic as it was nearing five already and they wouldn’t get home till about eight. I didn’t want them to leave. Tears were starting to prick at my eyes. I may be an adult and nineteen but there was never going to be a time when I didn’t need my mum and dad.

My mum pulled me into a hug as the tears started to fall from both of our cheeks.

“Were both so proud of you remember that. We love you and always will and will support you no matter what”.

“As long as you’re doing what makes you happy we will always support you” said my dad.

“Thankyou for everything, I love you both so much”

“We love you too” they both said in unison,

“If you ever need us then were on the other end of the phone” I smiled letting my dad join in the hug. We stood like that for a good few minutes before dad pulled away saying they had to go. We had our last hugs before they left and as I closed the door I realised that this was it. I now felt like an official adult, and let me tell you, I was scared, nervous and excited as hell.


This chapter is more where the story begins and the relationship between Sophie and Tom really forms. I hope you enjoy <3


Chapter 2: December 2004

I couldn’t believe I had almost completed my first term at Southampton. The course was absolutely amazing and I’d made some incredible friends on both my course and in my flat. Me and Charlotte immediately became the best of friends cooking our dinner and doing our laundry together.

Charlotte was the same age as me and was originally from London, like our flatmate, Tom who she had been dating a few years before coming to university, they had both put down to study at Southampton, Charlotte to study Film, while Tom, Drama both not thinking they would get their places let alone be in the same flat together. Tom treated her exactly as a boy should treat his girl, a complete gentleman. We all got along well in our flat, until the Halloween party in October.


October 2004

As it was Halloween we decided to throw a Halloween party in our flat. Many people from our courses and in the Kimber building came. The drinks were flowing and everyone was enjoying themselves. Tom stayed with Charlotte the entire night, his hand around her waist letting everyone know that she was his.

I wasn’t one for drinking but I enjoyed socialising and dancing. After a couple of hours and a few drinks I headed back to my room telling Charlotte that I’d be in my room if she needed me as I had a deadline to meet within the next few days.

I’d just set up my laptop and opened my notebook to begin typing up my essay when Charlotte came rushing into my room, tears rolling down her cheeks.

“Charlotte, what is it? What’s wrong?” I asked her concerned getting up from my desk to hug her and lead her to sit on the bed. She sat down before speaking.

“It’s…Tom” she said tears streaming down her face.

“What about him?” I asked

“I…I just saw him…kissing another girl” she said between sobs. I was going to kill him! No one treated one of my closest friends like that. Jerk. “I don’t understand, he’s been with you the whole evening, why...why would he kiss another girl?”


Charlotte explained that he had tried to kiss and be forceful with her which, he was drunk and that it wasn’t like him. They then got into an argument because they hadn’t been able to see each other as much as they had liked to since they came to uni. He shouted; she got upset and went outside. She hoped he would come out and find her and apologise like he normally did but he didn’t. She went back inside to go and apologise only to see him kissing another girl and that was how she ended up here in tears.

We spent the rest of the evening talking and watching Bridesmaids. Needless to say none of my work got done that evening but I didn’t care. Charlotte needed me and i was there.

Tom tried to talk to me the next day. I was just making a cup of tea to take with me to my lecture when Tom came into the kitchen dressed in dark jeans and a blue t shirt.

“Morning Soph” he said cheerily. He had a cheek.

`Morning Soph` really Tom? You really expect me to talk to you and be all civilised with you after what you’ve done to Charlotte?” You cheated on her!”

“I didn’t mean to I was drunk, I`m so so sorry Sophie” he pleaded with puppy dog eyes. Was he really pulling the puppy eyes on me? Really? It may work for charlotte, but it certainly wasn’t working for me.

“Tom, you shouldn’t be apologising to me, you should be apologising to Charlotte.”

“Soph”

“No, Tom. I have to get to class, talk to Charlotte, I wont forgive you until she does” with that I was out the door on my way to my lesson fuming that he would think to apologise to me. Urgh I was so annoyed.

I came back to the flat after my lecture to find that Charlotte had taken Tom back, claiming that she loved him and that he was sorry. She was silly if you ask me, naïve, vulnerable, she didn’t believe me when I said to her once a cheater, always a cheater until she found out he done it again in which she dumped him for good.

It was weird for a while in our flat after that incident. We all remained friends however as we didn’t want to make it awkward and cause more arguments. Even if I still hadn’t forgiven Tom for what he did to Charlotte I was still civil with him for Charlotte’s sake.


December 2004:


Being a magazine journalism student I was expected to go and review the universities Christmas production and interview the leads of the show afterwards.

This year it was Romeo and Juliet and guess who was the lead as Romeo? Only Tom Hiddleston. Urgh I sighed when I got told that. I still hadn’t forgiven him for what he had done to Charlotte, I mean we were civil for her sake but we just didn’t get along. He broke her heart.

Can’t I just pretend that it isn’t Tom playing Romeo and pretend its someone else? I need to be professional and write a high standard review but I can’t with that idiot playing the lead. I tried my best to write as many positive comments and points as I could about it. Romeo and Juliet was my favourite Shakespeare play and here he was as the lead, he was good I had to admit but why did he have to be such a jerk in real life? Urgh.

I guess I had to suck it up and treat him as any normal actor and wish I didn’t know him as personal as I did. After the performance I went backstage ready to interview him, he was back wearing his normal clothes, a pair of dark jeans and a light blue t shirt with some sort of writing on rather than his leather costume, his curly blonde hair all over the place crossed legged on a chair waiting for me to come over.

The interview went well, I was professional enough. The performance had made me realise how good of an actor he actually was, his performance was enjoyable and he made me fall in love with his portrayal of Romeo, more than I had with Leonardo Dicaprio and that’s saying something. It seemed Tom was born to be an actor, especially Shakespeare as in a few years time I would fall in love with him all over again with his portrayal of Henry IV and Henry V in the BBC version of The Hollow Crown.

Why did I have this strange feeling in the pit of my stomach? Maybe it was because his performance had moved me a bit. Surely I wasn’t feeling something for Tom in real life, was I? No, ofcourse not, this can’t happen.

After we had finished Tom asked if I wanted to grab something to eat before heading back to the flat. I agreed purely because I was hungry and needed to eat before going back to write up my review and transcribe my interview.

We came out of the drama theatre and walked side by side into town Tom with his hands in his jeans pocket. We had a quick bite at pizza hut before walking back to the flat.

Over dinner I realised I didn’t actually know that much about him, even though id been living with him for the past few months. I didn’t really get to see him as he’d always been with charlotte at the beginning of the term or in rehearsal up till now.

“So how did you get into acting?” I asked casually. He looked up from his pizza and smiled.

“Well my parents divorced when I was thirteen, I was in my final year at Eton and I turned to drama for comfort and ive loved it ever since. I can’t imagine myself doing anything else. Im really hoping doing drama here at Southampton will give me my break you know? What about you?”

“Same as you really, I’ve always written with having to do English and everything but I didn’t consider it as a career until I had two poems published in year nine and when my parents split up I turned to writing and wrote all my feelings and emotions down rather than having to talk about it. The journalism passion came in through watching TV programmes such as Gilmore Girls and I took media at GCSE and completely fell in love with the subject and creating magazine articles and layouts. I then studied Media Production at college and realised that this was what I wanted to do”. Why was I telling him this, he didn’t need to know my life story. Because he asked you, my consciences yelled back and look at him he’s listening intently to everything you’re saying. I looked up and my conscience was right he was listening intently to everything I was saying.

“You sound like you have a real passion for it, darling, I have faith that you will become the magazine journalist you wish to be.” I blushed. Did he really just complement me? Oh my god what are these feelings im experiencing. Push them back down. You do not feel anything for him. You don’t. You can’t.

After dinner and once we had finished discussing our families and hopes for the future we walked back to our flat and said our goodbyes and goodnights. I went to bed feeling happy with my review and interview but confused about my feelings for Tom. I really couldn’t wait till Christmas. I was ready to go home and spend some time with my family.
Luckily enough for me Christmas was just around the corner and a few weeks later we were saying our goodbyes and have a good Christmases agreeing to all be back before New Years so we could bring in the New Year together.


Chapter 3: November 2013

Tom`s portrayal of Loki in Thor 2 was once again absolutely incredible, he played him with such passion, just like he did with all of his other characters.

After the film had finished I filed out of the cinema with all the other journalists. My friend Emily who worked for Total Film asked if I wanted to go for a drink. I politely declined saying I was meeting a friend for dinner.

“You’re meeting Tom, aren’t you? She asked.

“N...no” I stammered. I looked down trying to hide my face.

“Come on Soph, ive known you for a good few years and even though you haven’t told me about Tom, I know that you knew each other before, please, it was so obvious by the way he looked at you and the way you looked at him. Go have fun and I want a full report when I next see you.” she smiled. I smiled back hugging her.

“Thanks Em”.

I gradually made my way out of the cinema to find Tom waiting for me at the entrance. His face lit up when he saw me, a huge smile that reached his gorgeous blue eyes appearing on his face. I smiled back walking over to see him.

“Hello, darling” he said kissing both my cheeks and bringing me into his embrace. I walked into his embrace hugging him back. “Tom” I whispered. I took in this moment, the feeling of his arms wrapped securely around my back and the smell of his cologne and the smell of Tom. How I’d missed him so.

“I’ve missed you, Sophie, darling”

“I’ve missed you too, Tom”

And it was true, I didn’t quite realise how much id missed him until I saw him again and was back in his arms. I often thought about him but for some strange reason didn’t think about texting or calling him but then he hadn’t either so I guess it was both of our faults. We were both so busy recently that we actually hadn’t had a chance to keep in contact. It had been non stop for both of us, well it was for me anyway, constantly having to transcribe interviews and watch films and write articles and for Tom too by the amount of films he had starred in and how famous he had gotten since we left university.

We broke from the embrace Tom holding me at arms length. “You look beautiful, darling you haven’t changed one bit, maybe become more beautiful and successful but you haven’t changed as a person”. I smiled. “Neither have you, although you’ve maybe become a famous actor and more taller”. I laughed. He laughed too his ehehe that was so infectious.

“So how does dinner sound, my dear?”

“Perfect, I`m starving”. He offered me his arm. I took it without hesitation as we walked along the streets of London in search of a restaurant.

After a bit of roaming around we settled on an Italian restaurant in the heart of Covent Garden. A quite place with Italian music playing in the background. It was at times like this that I loved London and was so glad I moved here when I got the job at Empire.

The waitress recognised Tom when we walked in but didn’t say anything thinking he wanted his privacy. The waitress led us over to a table near the back of the restaurant so we weren’t to be disturbed.

Tom pulled out my chair for me allowing me to sit before walking round to the other side of the table and sitting down. The waitress passed us our menus and asked what we wanted to drink. Tom ordered a bottle of Moet champagne as he said we were celebrating. I smiled remembering seeing the pictures of him at the tennis finals a year back with a glass of Moet and pudding in his hand. I laughed.

“What’s so funny, darling” he asked. I smiled.

“Oh…nothing I just remembered some pictures I saw of you a year ago with a glass of Moet and pudding in your hand” I said.

“Ah... So you’ve been keeping tags on me have you?” he asked his big blue eyes boring into my green ones.

“Erm…well” I stuttered. “It’s a little hard not to when you’re now this big movie star” he laughed. “I`m just joking with you, darling” he smiled. I smiled back. The waitress came back over carrying a tray with a bottle of Moet and two champagne glasses on. She put them down and smiled before getting out her notepad and pen and taking our order of spaghetti bologonse for me and a cheese and tomato pizza for Tom before leaving us to it.


Tom picked up the bottle of Moet cracking it open, some of it spilling on the floor in the process. He laughed “Thomas” I scolded a smirk on my face. “Oopsies” he said laughing, throwing his head back and sticking his tongue out. He thought it was so funny that he almost spilled the whole bottle over the floor. I had to take it from him before he’d wasted god knows how much money on some champagne we hadn’t even drunk. I took it from him filling to glasses with the fizzy liquid. I put the bottle down and went to take a sip but Tom stopped me by putting a hand to my wrist. “Wait,we need to make a toast.”

“Why, what is it were celebrating?” I asked.

“That were back in each others lives, is that ok darling? He asked”

“Ofcourse, Tom” I answered a big smile forming on my face.

“To being back in each others lives” he toasted.

“To being back in each others lives” I agreed clinking our glasses together and taking a sip. We both smiled knowing that it both meant a lot to one another to be back in one another’s company.


Conversation flowed over dinner as it always had. It was as though we hadn’t been away from each other and just picked up from where we left off five years ago.

Tom told me all about his acting career and how after university he started doing small television roles before landing his big break thanks to Kenneth Branagh in Wallander. He told me all about what it was like to work with all these amazing actors and directors including Woody Allen and Stephen Spielberg and how much he loved what he did and how much of a joy it was when he got the role of Prince Hal and Henry V in the TV series of The Hollow Crown. I admitted to him that I had seen all of his work and how much he’d grown up since university. He’d grown up into the most handsome talented actor I had ever known. I was so proud of him.

Our dinner arrived while he was talking about his role in The Hollow Crown. We exchanged pleasantries about how nice both of our meals were and allowed the conversation to slow as we enjoyed our food. A comfortable silence that even after all these years we could just sit and enjoy each others company without having to fill it with conversation.

We continued our conversation half through our meal with Tom asking about my job at Empire and my writing. I told him about the office jobs after leaving uni and how much I longed to be a journalist.

I kept applying for magazine jobs and not getting them but I got a call from Empire a few years later saying that my name had been kept on record from when I done my two week work placement with them whilst at Southampton and that there was a job open if I wanted to apply.

I applied expecting not to hear anything but got an interview and the job purely based on my degree. Now with a job at Empire it gave me the opportunity to fulfil my other dream of going to live in London. I packed up all of my left over belongings and moved from Dover to London as id moved back home once finishing uni as there were no jobs in Southampton. Dover was bad but I managed to secure myself an office job there.

Even though the job at Empire was just a runner job I was still happy to be in a magazine office,even if it was just a job that involved getting people coffee and sorting the mail I still felt like id made it as I knew in this industry you had to get your foot in the door and work your way up. That’s exactly what I did.

I kept writing in my spare time and once id been there a few months I asked my editor to look at my writing. She did. She said it was good and to keep writing and that she would see if I could go to the next premiere that they were covering and shadow one of the journalists.

I got the opportunity to attend the premiere of Never Let Me Go in 2010 starring Keira Knightley, Carey Mulligan and Andrew Garfield. That was a big moment for me, I mean I’d been to loads of premieres in my spare time but this was completely different. This time I was behind the journalist pen rather than the fan pen. At every premiere I went to I would look across at press pen at all the journalists getting ready to interview the actors that walked the carpet and thought how much I wanted to do that and now I could. Well almost, being behind the pen was a start even if I wasn’t allowed to interview as of yet.

I also got to watch the film and had the responsibility of writing a review about the film to be put up online. This became a regular occurrence and I soon worked my way up writing regular features and articles for the magazine and online, attending the film premieres and getting the opportunity to do my own interviews. I’d achieved my dream job and Im living the dream and running into Tom made it even better.

Tom listened intently the whole time I was talking about my work just like I had with his. We both generally found each others work fascinating.

We’d finished our food by the time I finished talking. “Sorry, I feel like Ive talked too much, you probably didn’t need to know every single detail.” Tom took my hand across the table. I forgot how nice his hands felt in mine. All these feelings came back. “Don’t apologise darling, it has been lovely to catch up with you and you’ve done so much and achieved your dream just like I knew you would. You always were so passionate about film and journalism and now you’ve achieved what you set out to do all those years ago. Im so proud of you Sophie, darling”. Tom brought my hand to his lips kissing my knuckles. I smiled. “Thankyou, Tom you have no idea how much that means, you always told me not to give up on it so I really have to Thankyou for not allowing me too…and im proud of you too, Tom, you’ve worked so hard and with every performance you talent shines through even more than the last.” Tom grinned. “Bless you for saying that, darling, truly, that means so much”.

The waitress came back over and cleared our plates asking if we wanted desert. Tom`s face lit up, as it always did when pudding or desert was mentioned. We ordered a tiramisu to share. Not long after the waitress bought it over and we tucked in. I took a mouthful and Tom laughed his ehehe. “What is it, Tom? What’s so funny?” I asked him.

“Darling, are you saving that bit for later, you seem to have some on the side of your lip.” How embarrassing! I wiped it with my hand but Tom laughed again. “Guessing I didn’t get it?” he laughed.

“Here darling, allow me”. I smiled. Tom got up from his chair and walked round to where I was sitting. He kneeled down in front of me placing his left hand on my left cheek moving his thumb over to where the tiramisu was on my lip and wiping it off. I automatically closed my eyes and leaned into his touch forgetting where I was. How could something that simple be so sexy? Maybe because its Tom`s hand said my conscious. Tom coughed. I opened my eyes and saw him looking from my lips to my eyes. He done this for a few minutes. Does he want to kiss me? Do I make a move? Tom’s eyes slowly closed, as did mine. He leant in and placed a soft kiss on my lips. “Ive missed you Sophie, so much. I didn’t quite realise how much until I saw you this evening. I`m so sorry we broke up after university.” He let his hand fall into his lap and looked up at me a sad expression on his face before looking down at the floor. Oh, Tom, my poor Tom, it was my fault as much as yours we just drifted apart, we were both so busy but both of our dreams have bought us back to each other.

“Tom, look at me” his eyes stayed glued to the floor. My hand went to the side of his face cupping it in my hand. “Tom, look at me” I repeated again. He finally looked at me. “It wasn’t your fault, it was neither of our faults, we just both drifted apart and both became so busy, well you did anyway but just think if we hadn’t drifted apart then our dreams and careers wouldn’t have bought us back to each other.”

“Yes, but we could have had so much longer together if we hadn’t broken up”

“But if we hadn’t have broken up then we wouldn’t have had time to grown as people and we would have argued because you would have been away a lot and it wouldn’t have worked because you was here and I was back in Dover so im glad we met again tonight.”

“I am too, darling but-“

“No, Tom, no buts, we need to live in the moment and in the future, not in the past and what could have been, ok?” he smiled. “Ok”

Tom gave me once last kiss on my lips before pulling away, walking back round to his side of the table, sitting down and continuing eating the tiramisu. It was just like old times, it was nice to be back in his presence. I had missed him terribly, not quite realising how much until seeing him again.

We finished our pudding and the waitress came over to collect our plates. I pulled out my purse ready to pay my half but Tom was having none of it, saying it was on him as he hadn’t seen me in so long. I tried to argue but he took my purse from me, saying he wasn’t going to give it back until we got out of the restaurant.

Tom put down the amount that needed to be paid along with a tip on the table for the waitress to collect who came back over a few minutes later to collect the money with a napkin and pen in her hand. “Im sorry to disturb you Mr Hiddleston but would I be able to have your autograph? I didn’t want to disturb you during the evening and I’d kick myself later if I didn’t atleast ask”. She smiled.

“Ofcourse, it would be my pleasure and bless you for not disturbing us, it really is much appreciated. Who am I signing it to?” Tom asked the girl.

“Louise” said the waitress.

Tom signed the napkin out to her before handing it back along with the money for the meal and tip. She smiled. “Thankyou so much Mr Hiddleston, have a lovely evening” “Thankyou, and you” replied Tom. She took the money and left.

“Ready to go, Soph?” he asked.

“Sure am” I smiled. Tom grabbed his suit jacket off the back of his chair and slipped it on. He then walked round to my side of the table offering me his arm and handing me back my purse. I took both allowing him to escort me out of the restaurant.

With it being mid November it was beginning to get cold and I didn’t think to bring a coat with me as we were only allowed minimum items behind the pen and I thougt that I was going to get straight in a taxi after the film so didn’t think of bringing one with me. I was dressed in a black dress that ended just near my knee, black tights and black flats with a red cardigan over the top, my long brown hair tied up in a ponytail. We were required to wear black while on the carpet so we couldn’t stand out from any of the stars. The cold hit me as soon as we got outside. I shivered. Tom looked at me and automatically removed his jacket tucking it snugly around my shoulders. I smiled looking up at him. “Thankyou Tom”.

“You’re welcome, darling, wouldn’t want you catching a cold now would we?” he smiled taking my hand in his and walking along the streets of London.

“I`m so glad you was there tonight and that you got to interview me darling, I knew you could do it” I smiled.

“It was an honour to get to interview you, just like back at uni. Do you remember?” You’re not meant to be talking about the past, what happened to thinking in the present and about the future rather than the present?

“Ofcourse I remember darling, I couldn’t forget any of my memories with you. You’ve gotten much better at interviewing though, not stumbling over your words as much” I smiled.

“Thankyou, you’ve gotten to be a better actor too, not saying you weren’t amazing back then, you were but now that you’ve grown up you’ve gotten so much better. It was nice to be able to interview you then and interview you now to know that you haven’t let the fame go to your head and that you`re still so down to earth. I forgot to ask you, how’s Diana and James and Emma and Sarah? You used to talk about them a lot back then and I realised that I haven’t seen them in ages either.”

“There well, Sarah now lives in India with her husband, we went over there for their wedding a few years ago, its beautiful. It’s lovely to see her happy. Emma is still acting, although she mainly does theatre than film and Mum and Dad are fine too, they both still live in London, dad at Westminster and mum here in Covent Garden, im sure they’d love to see you again. They often ask about you, you know” I smiled at that. I loved Tom’s parents and sisters. They were so lovely. He invited me round there a few times while we were at university.


By now we were walking near Trafalgar Square. Tom asked where abouts I was living now I lived in London.

“Southbank” I replied.

“Ah, you always did like Southbank, didn’t you?” I smiled at the fact that he remembered after all these years.

“I did, and still do”. I smiled. “It’s handy because it’s near the office too and where all the premieres are so if I don’t want to go out to the after party after I can just go home. Which I often do, im not one for partying”

“You never were” Tom commented.

“You weren’t either, really though, were you?” I replied. That was one of the many things we had in common.

“No, I never have been, I mean ive had to go to a few because it was the cast of one of the films I had made but I often prefer not too” Tom missed out on one of his cast parties to spend time with me.

“You missed out on the Thor 2 after party tonight and it was all because of me, now I feel bad.” I stopped walking. Tom stopped too looking down at me.

“Sophie, don’t feel bad, yes I was going to go but then I saw you and I wanted to spend some time with you, catch up with you, on your own and if we had went then I wouldn’t have seen you and been able to do this” he leaned down and brushed a strand of hair that fallen from my ponytail out of my eye before placing a soft kiss on my lips. Before I knew what I was doing my hands fell around his neck playing with the curls at the back of his neck deepening the kiss. He smiled kissing me back with as much passion as he could muster. I moaned into his mouth. One of his hands travelled down to my waist while the other rested on my cheek. We pulled away after a while catching our breath. I moaned at the loss of contact. He rested his forehead against mine. “Ive missed you so much Sophie” he whispered. “Ive missed you too, Tom, I didn’t realise how much until this evening” We both smiled. Tom gave me one last kiss before taking my hand and escorting me back home.

When we arrived at my door he asked when he could see me again. I said that I worked everyday from 9-5 but was free in the evenings and on weekends. We swapped numbers again as we had both changed phones and numbers since university and he gave me a long passionate kiss before turning round and walking back down the road.

I unlocked the door and went into the house going straight upstairs and putting my pyjamas on before going downstairs taking my phone out of my bag, going into the kitchen and making myself a cup of tea and going into the living room to cuddle up infront of the TV.

I checked my phone. A message from Tom:

Thankyou for a lovely evening Sophie darling. It was so lovely to see you after all this time. I look forward to seeing you again soon. Sweet Dreams. All my love. T xxx

I smiled rereading the message a few times before typing a quick reply how lovely it was to see him too and that he can text me whenever he likes to arrange to meet up again before switching off the TV and going upstairs to bed. I went to bed happier than I had in a long time.

Chapter 4: December 2004

After an amazing but stressful first term at Southampton it was nice to be able to go home and relax. I’d been home quite a lot since being there but something about going home for Christmas was different. My life at uni and my life at home were like two different worlds, when I was at uni it was as though I hadn’t ever lived at home but when I was at home it was as though I had never left.

Over the couple of weeks break I caught up with mum and dad telling them all about uni aswell as Lucy, Sophie and Megan over Nandos to fill them in and have a catch up about all of our different courses.

I told them about Charlotte and Emma and my course and they told me about there’s. It was as though nothing had changed. Sooner or later the topic of boys came up.

Lucy told us about her boyfriend Ben who she met on her course and had been dating since October. She said it was nice to just be herself around him and nice that he wasn’t forcing her into anything she didn’t want to do. They enjoyed watching films together and enjoying each others company.

Megan was the type to get completely drunk out of her head and kiss random strangers including an incident where she almost lost her virginity but stopped herself when she realised what she was doing.

Sophie was concentrating mainly on her course as she said it was really intense and that she didn’t have time to have a boyfriend but if someone came along that she liked then she would reconsider.

They then asked me about mine. I told them briefly about Tom even though nothing had actually happened between us and as much I still didn’t like him there was something in me that told me I did I just didn’t want to admit it. I told them how he and Charlotte used to date and that he got drunk and kissed another girl at a Halloween party in our flat and how Charlotte had turned to me. I also told them about having to review and interview Tom after his performance of Romeo and Juliet. No matter how I much I didn’t like him I told them how amazing his performance of Romeo was and how I fell in love with his portrayal of him, even more than Leonardo Dicaprio and that I wished he wasn’t such a jerk in real life. I was trying tell that to myself more than anyone else.

Christmas was the usual affair, as though I hadn’t even been to uni in the first place. A normal day spent with mum and dad at home, eating as much food as possible with my new Olly Murs CD on repeat waiting for the Downton Abbey Christmas Special.

A few days later me and mum went and visited my Nan, having a second Christmas with her and my cousins. I couldn’t help but wonder what Charlotte, Emma and Tom were up to hoping they were enjoying themselves as much as I was. It was nice not having to worry about anything but I had to admit I did miss my room and flatmates at uni and couldn’t wait to get back there.

December 2004: New Years Eve

It was nice to get back to uni after the Christmas break. As much as I liked being at home I liked being back, having my own independence again and seeing my flatmates who were kind of like my second family in a way, even though i had only known them a couple of months it felt like id known them forever. It was nice, I was glad me and my flatmates got along unlike Sophie and her flatmates at uni so I was very lucky.

Like on any occasion whether it be Halloween, someone’s birthday or New Year we took this an opportunity to invite friends round from different flats and throw one big party or have a few drinks before hitting the town. Tonight was no exception we were going to bring in the New Year with style having a few drinks at our flat then a group of us were going to hit one of the clubs in Southampton.

I’d bought a new dress for the occasion; I seemed to own so many dresses yet still took liberty in buying a new dress whenever I could get away with it. Dresses seemed to be my weakness, along with handbags. I had more handbags than one could imagine.

Me and Charlotte had gone shopping to pick out outfits together. That was one of the things I loved about Charlotte, we had the same taste in clothes as we did in films and music and often spent the time we weren’t in lecturers, seminars or doing work sat in each others rooms watching films or listening to music.

A few days after we got back to university we went shopping to find the perfect outfits for the New Years festivities. I decided on a simple black dress as you couldn’t go wrong with it being able to jazz it up or down plus id left my black dress at home thinking I wouldn’t need it. I bought a silver sparkly bolorow and silver heeled shoes to go with it. I thought id brave wearing heels for the evening as the dress didn’t look right with flats pairing it with a silver clutch so that I could fit my phone, purse, camera and lip-gloss in it.

Charlotte decided on a straight red dress to match her long blonde hair, some red heels and black handbag. She looked absolutely gorgeous as always.

Everyone began to arrive at around seven given people a chance to have a few drinks before hitting the town around nine. We hadn’t gotten a chance to see much of Tom as he had recently been busy with his work practising Shakespeare’s Henry V monologue for a drama exam he had in the New Year so it would be nice to see him tonight.

He came into the kitchen dressed in a blue button down shirt and dark jeans and slacks, his curly blonde hair all of the place, as always. He reminded me of my first crush at secondary school, Ethan. He was lovely. I liked him for the whole five years I was there but he said he couldn’t go out with me because he was a Jehovas Witness and they apparently weren’t allowed to date girls that weren’t. That hurt, we remained friends though which was nice, I valued his friendship more anyway.

Tom walked over to get a Guiness from the table of alcohol we had set out before coming over to where me and Charlotte and a couple of other people were talking putting a hand on my back and joining in the conversation. Why was his hand on my back? Surely he was just being friendly wasn’t he?

The conversation and drinks continued to flow and just before nine we set off into town to Oceania where we would bring in the New Year. It was busy but that was to be expected. The dance floor was packed with people dancing to the dance music blaring from the speakers.

We all made our way over to the bar ordering shots of yaga and the different drinks everyone wanted. I stuck to my normal disarano and coke. I planned on getting tipsy but not drunk as I didn’t like waking up with a hangover or being sick.

The night continued with a lot of dancing and drinking. Me and Charlotte were on the dance floor the entire night dancing in the New Year in style. Tom wasn’t much of a dancer although he did have a couple of dances with us but spent most of the evening by the bar watching and taking in the couples and groups of friends on the dance floor.

I danced with a few boys loosing myself a mixture of alcohol and music. I kept looking over at Tom, his body language was different he looked tense. Was he jealous? I didn’t think he liked me; I didn’t particularly like him either. Not in that way anyway. We were just friends, we’d got a lot closer since I had to review his performance of Romeo and Juliet and put our differences aside. But looking at him tonight I felt differently.

We continued dancing and drinking. At around half eleven I decided to take my leave as the disarno was starting to go to my head. There was a lot ofs “You need to stay till after midnight and bring in the New Year” I had a few more dances and one more drink before taking my leave at 11.45. I was usually one to stay out to the early hours of the morning but in truth on New Year I preferred to bring the New Year in with watching the fireworks on the TV. If I left now it would give me just enough time to get back to my flat.

I said my goodbyes and happy new years to everyone and walked out into the crisp evening air back to my flat. I arrived back at my flat just before 11:55 and switched my TV on just in time for the fireworks to start. They were beautiful, all different colours with the perfect soundtrack over the top. Then the countdown started. I joined in even though I was on my own.

When it got to 2 there was a knock on my door. Wondering who could possibly be knocking on my door at this time of night I got up from the bed and went over to answer it just as the clock struck midnight. I opened the door to find Tom standing in the doorway.

“Happy New Year Soph” he said before leaning in and planting the softest of kisses on my lips. It took me a while to function that he was kissing me. I didn’t understand. We hadn’t gotten on at the beginning of the term and I mean yeah we put our differences aside and became friends and I think I secretly liked him more than a friend and this just proved that he did too. I pulled away. “Happy New Year, Tom” I said before he leaned in for another kiss. I kissed him back with as much passion as I could muster. What are you doing? My consciousness screamed, you don’t like him! He’s Charlottes ex. Stop it! But I couldn’t and I didn’t want to. He licked along my bottom lip begging for entrance. I obliged our tongues invading each others mouths Tom pushing me back into my bedroom just as the others began to come back from the club. He kicked the door shut and pushed me against the wall his hand stroking my face. We pulled away after a few minutes to catch our breath.

“I…I`m sorry” he stuttered. I looked at him. His eyes were filled with lust.

“N…No, it’s…its fine. I…you…you just caught me of guard. I didn’t think you liked me like that”

“Sophie, how could I not? I’ve liked you since I first saw you.”

“I...i don’t understand. You were dating Charlotte and then you cheated on her with another girl and I was left to pick up the pieces and now you come in here on New Years Eve and kiss me. I don’t understand” I walked away from him walking over and sitting on the bed cross legged, my hands in my lap.

Tom came over and sat next to me on the bed. We were both silent for a moment and watched the view of London on the television. Tom suddenly took one of my hands from my lap intertwining it with his before looking at our hands and back at the television before speaking.

“I cheated on Charlotte because I wanted to be with you, ive always wanted to be with you since the first moment I saw you. I knew that I couldn’t do anything about my feelings for you when I was with her because you were both friends so I cheated on her to make myself believe that I didn’t have feelings for you and I acted like I didn’t like you to make it easier but in theory it made it harder and when you had to interview me after Romeo and Juliet and we went to dinner afterwards I realised that I couldn’t hide my feelings for you anymore and when you were dancing with those boys tonight I was jealous and I couldn’t take it anymore I just had to know how you felt and by the way you kissed me back I assume that you like me too?” I didn’t know what to say, I mean yes, I liked him too but what would we do about charlotte if we gave it a shot would we tell her straight out? It was as though Tom read my mind because he smiled and said “I think we should just see how it goes before we tell anyone, keep it to ourselves for now and see how it goes and then if we work out then we tell her, how does that sound?”

“That sounds…good” I replied a smile appearing on my face.

“Good” said Tom leaning across to kiss me. I kissed him back. When we broke away to catch our breath I said “ I want to take this slow, ive never really had a boyfriend and don’t know what im doing”

“You seem as though you do darling, you have nothing to worry about we’ll go as slow as you like I really want this to work between us Sophie and I promise I will never do anything to hurt you.” I smiled.

“Thankyou, Tom”.

“You’re welcome, darling” he said kissing the top of my forehead. We spent the rest of the evening snuggled in each others embrace on the bed his arm around my waist and my hand upon his chest bringing in the New Year in each others arms watching the aftermath of the fireworks.

“Happy New Year Sophie, darling”

“Happy New Year Tom” I smiled snuggling closer into his embrace. Before I knew it we were both asleep happy and content in each others arms.

I awoke the next morning to find I was still in my dress from the previous evening; a blanket draped me and a note on my bedside. It took me a while to realise where I was and what had happened. Maybe I had drunk more than I thought, although I didn’t feel that hung-over just a little headache. I looked at the note realising it was from Tom and the memories from last night came flooding back. Dancing at the club, Tom being jealous and then him coming to my flat at midnight wishing me a happy new year and kissing me and admitting his feelings to me. I smiled at the memory picking up the note from my bedside.
The following was written in his neat hand.

Good Morning, Sophie my darling,

I trust you slept well. Sorry I had to leave you I had to get to a lecture for 10 and I didn’t want to wake you. You looked so peaceful. My lecturer finishes at 1 if you wanted to meet me outside pizza hut at say 1:15 for a spot of lunch. Text me once you’re awake darling.

See you later.

Lots of love

Tom

Xxx

I looked across at the clock on my bedside. 10 o clock it read. Luckily enough I didn’t have any lectures today so I could have a chilled morning before meeting Tom for lunch and then come back and get on with some work later.

This was going to be a good year, I could feel it.

Moving House by Emily Pontin


Moving House- A Tom Hiddleston Fanfiction.

Prologue

Me and Amy had been friends forever. You could say we were more like sisters than best friends.

We’d been through primary and secondary school together, always looking out for each other, having each others backs.

Then after secondary school we both kind of drifted apart, both going our separate ways and doing our own thing. I went to college to study Media Production in hope of one day becoming a film journalist- id always been a film and actors buff knowing most films, most recently those of Tom Hiddleston and Amy studying a photography course to become a photographer.

She was never without a camera, even in primary she always carried a camera, snapping away pictures of random objects and I was constantly her model posing for photos here and there, taking pictures of our days out together.

She was destined for it, and now at the age of twenty eight she`d finally achieved her dream, she was now classed as a photographer. It seemed everything was going her way. She`d recently opened up her own gallery of photos in London and was moving there to start her life with her fiancée Jay, whom she met whilst on a backpacking holiday in Italy. He always encouraged her to follow her dreams and she had.

I was so proud of her but at the same time I felt as though my life was going rather slowly. She’d always been the prettier and more successful one of the two of us, knowing that she wanted to be a photographer since she was seven, when he dad bought her her first camera. I however, took longer in deciding what career path I wanted to take.

Everyone always told me that I could do anything I wanted and put my mind to. It was just deciding what my mind wanted to stick to. Every girl dreams of being something when they grown up `I want to be a princess` or `I want to be a ballerina`. When your five you don’t realise how tough life is and your free to be able to dream of becoming a princess or ballerina all you like but then you grow up and having to face reality and the fact that fairytales don’t exist.

Im not saying I didn’t know what I wanted to be when I grew up. I did id been set on what I wanted to be when I was fourteen. I wanted to be a policewoman but one trip to the opticians and my plans had to change.

Because I was blind in one eye the optician said that there may be a possibility that I may not be able to drive let alone become a policewoman. My childhood dream was shattered.

From then on my dreams and career ambitions changed. I’d always loved writing, my favourite subject at school being English. I always carried a notebook with me wherever I went, jotting down things I saw or writing descriptions of people id met. I was as bad as Amy with her camera.

After that optician appointment I also decided that I didn’t want to drive, Id never really thought about it and presides I had far from the best attention span and coordination skills. Instead I fulfilled another life long dream I had since I was ten, Id always loved America since I went to Florida with my mum and dad. I knew from then that I wanted to go back, especially to New York and growing up watching lots of American TV my dream had only grown more.

So when I finished uni at the age of twenty one I spent two glorious weeks in New York with Amy, admiring the sights, going to see Wicked on Broadway, we went and saw it once when we went to London for the day and completely fell in love with it, probably thanks to watching too much Glee. We also went and ate cupcakes just like the girls in Sex and the City and sat on the Met like the Blair and Serena in Gossip Girl, aswell as shopping in Barney`s,Bloomigdales and Saks and taking a trip to Tiffany’s to have my Holly Golightly moment. Id always loved black and white movies, especially ones with Audrey Hepburn so I had a bit of a fangirl moment when I had coffee and a danish outside the famous Tiffany’s including going in and treating myself to a tiffany necklace to remember it by. Not that I would forget it, especially as I made Amy take god knows how many pictures of me outside. Something tells me that trip was based on our love for American TV.

We’d spent a lot of time round Amy’s growing up watching reruns of Friends, Glee or Gossip girl on TV putting the world to rights. I loved growing up with Amy as my best friend, in that house that held so many memories. You can imagine my sadness when she told me she was selling the house and moving to London with Jay, the house we’d both pretty much grown up in all our lives was going on the market.


Chapter 1

Today was the day. The day my childhood best friend moved out of the house she grew up in, where we both shared so many memories.

It was Friday, I’d left work early making out I had a doctors appointment when really Amy had asked me to help her move her things out of the house.

She text me that morning just to remind me and I told her I’d be around at about three to help her.

I walked home past Amy’s from work as I only lived around the corner from her. It was nice having a friend that close by, a kind of comfort; I knew at whatever time I could go round and see her, whether it was for a catch up and putting the world to rights or for some tea bags. I was going to miss that.

Amy was outside when I arrived, loading things into the removal van. As I approached her house I saw a tall man of about 6`2 with blonde curly hair. From behind it looked like Tom Hiddleston. `Don’t be silly Emily` I thought to myself, brushing the thought from my mind.

I approached Amy`s house, the front door wide open with a white removal van outside.

“All packed?” I asked

“Hey” she said coming over to hug me. “Almost, Tom is just helping me pack up the rest of my stuff.”

I looked over at the man I had seen the back of when I approached Amy’s house and stopped in my tracks. It was Tom Hiddleston… helping Amy. Having not noticed me he went back into the house to fetch another box.

“How the hell did Tom freaking Hiddleston end up helping you move house” I screamed, the fangirl inside me going crazy.

“Oh, Jay’s working late so he sent Tom to help.” She replied calm as calm”

“What?” my mind was struggling to focus on the fact that Jay knew Tom freaking Hiddleston and Amy didn’t even think to mention it.

“Yeah, they met at Eton, when Jay was younger and they’ve been friends ever since”

I just stood there gauping.

Tom must have heard me as he done his little ehehe laugh and came out of the house smiling, carrying another brown box over to the removal van.

I just stared at him in awe, dressed in a pair of dark jeans, his brown cowboy boots tucked over the top and the dark blue shirt he wore in Detroit with his sunglasses poking out from the few buttons that were undone. His hair was back to his natural blonde curls. I’d always had a thing for guys with blonde curls ever since my first crush at secondary school.

I didn’t realise how blue his eyes were (as though he was looking into my soul) until he was right infront of me extending his hand to introduce himself.

“Tom Hiddleston, nice to meet you” he said in his smooth British accent,his voice like chocolate. I take his hand, shaking it, his long slender fingers wrapping around mine. Oh my god, Tom Hiddleston’s holding my hand. Don’t say anything stupid, Emily. Don’t come across as another silly fangirl, don’t come across as a fangirl, don’t come across as a fangirl, you’re twenty eight years old. Answer him, answer him.

“E..Emily, you stutter, it’s a pleasure to meet you Mr Hiddleston” you’ve done it already. You silly girl. Mr Hiddleston, really??

“Tom, please, call me Tom.”

“Tom” his name rolled off your tongue so easily.

“Forgive me Mr Hid...Tom I don’t want to come across as some fangirl but I just wanted to let you know that I loved you in Midnight in Paris, I literally didn’t want to leave the cinema, your portrayal of F.Scott Fitzgerald was just phenomenal”

I was still holding his hand, he didn’t seem eager to let go as when I tried to pull away he tightened his grip on my hand. Still holding my hand and looking into my eyes oh my god, he’s looking into my soul he replied “Oh darling, bless you for saying that, I have to say Amy has told me quite a lot about you. Oh my god Amy had told Tom Hiddleston about me! Remind me to thank her later. You’re an aspiring journalist are you not?” he smiled showing his pearly whites. Oh god they’re perfect, he’s perfect. You’re talking to Tom Hiddleston.

“I am” you blush.

“She told me you’ve had quite a few reviews published on a blog including one about `The Hollow Crown` or so I’ve been told” Maybe not. I went to glare at Amy but she smirked and ran inside. Oh god, out of all the reviews I had written, she had to mention that one. I’d ended up reviewing `The Hollow Crown` because my `editor` knew how much of a fan I was of Tom`s. I tried and most likely failed to make the review sound professional with minimum fangirling, but that proved more difficult than I thought.

“Erm...yes I may have done” you reply warily.

“Well, Emily, I’d love to read them sometime” There is no way he’s reading that one. Any of the others, fine, but that one, no way. I didn’t want him knowing how much I fangirled over him on Twitter and Tumblr. Before I could give a response Amy saved me by asking if either of us wanted a cup of tea.

“Please” we both replied in unison, and with that Tom let go on my hand only to entwine my fingers under his arm to lead me inside the house. Such a gentleman.

Everything was all packed up accept for a few chairs, mugs, kettle and a carton of milk and a bag of sugar that was left on the side just incase we all wanted a cup of tea before she left. The house seemed completely empty accept for those last few items that needed to be packed. It was sad to think Amy was leaving.

I remember all the times we’d spent in this house, when we were younger playing with our barbies, then when we started secondary school and it consisted of coke and mars bars as we done our homework and once we’d both finished uni and before we took our trip to New York we put the world to rights over American TV and white wine. Then we went our separate ways fulfilling our career paths, well Amy fulfilling hers anyway, straight out of uni she went to Italy spending a few months photographing food for an Italian magazine.

That was where she met Jay; he worked at the magazine she photographed for, also a photographer from London who was backpacking trying to find inspiration photographing the amazing landscapes of Venice. She was smitten as soon as she met him, going out for dinner every night eating pasta. When she came home they continued to date for the following five years, Jay supporting her photography career from the very start. It made sense she was moving to London especially as she spent most of her time there and what better excuse than having opened her own gallery of photos and being proposed to by her boyfriend?

Me on the other hand, a struggling journalist who wrote film reviews for a blog in her spare time while working a nine to five in the office. I hated it. I longed to live in the city. Id applied for countless jobs in London but none had yet appealed and caught my eye and allowed me to move.

I dreamed of becoming a film journalist, purely for my love of film, cinema and actors and not to mingle with the celebrities although that would most definitely be a perk. When I wasn’t at the office I was watching films, going to the cinema, usually the old ladies cinema on a Saturday afternoon. Dover cinema was small but usually played the latest films on a Saturday afternoon, it was in this small cinema with just the one screen that I first discovered an actor by the name of Tom Hiddleston.

I went into the cinema that day knowing barely anything about Midnight in Paris or about Fitzgerald and Hemmingway, accept for the fact that the film was set in Paris in the 1920s and that it was directed by Woody Allen.

I watched the film in amazement. Id always loved Paris even if I hadn’t been. Especially at night with it all light up it was beautiful. Id seen enough movies to know that it’s a place I want to visit. The man who portrayed F.Scott Fitzgerald caught my eye as soon as he came on screen in his 1920s blonde locks and his green suede suit and American accent. I couldn’t keep my eyes off him. I only wish he’d been in it more.

I was sad when the credits rolled; I didn’t want to leave the cinema until the credits had finished rolling purely because of the French music that was playing, but mostly to see the actor who portrayed Fitzgerald so beautifully. Tom Hiddleston.


Chapter 2.

That afternoon after coming out of the world of 1920s Paris, I went home and googled his name trying to discover what other films he was in. From then on I was hooked.

Over the next few months id watched most of his filmography including The Deep Blue Sea, Thor, Archipalego , Unrelated and mini TV movie series `The Hollow Crown` which I later got to review. I also watched some of the TV shows he was in including Suburban Shootout and Wallander and almost every interview on Youtube. He was such a gentleman answering every question fully and with such politeness and kindness. You could certainly tell he was British he has that charm about him.

He got even better with every role he played and was absolutely gorgeous in pictures but even more beautiful in the flesh with his curly hair and gorgeous blue green eyes, his lean body and perfect cheekbones. There was literally nothing wrong with him whatsoever. No flaws. He was an angel sent from the heavens.

Amy set about making the tea whilst Tom went and washed his hands from the dust of the boxes. I didn’t even realise they were dusty but that was probably because I was too lost in the fact that this gorgeous and perfect human being was looking right in to my eyes, talking to me.

“I can’t believe you’re leaving” I said to Amy, tears beginning to appear in my green eyes.

“I know, it feels strange. Ive lived in this house, in this rubbish town of Dover all my life and now im leaving. I don’t so much care about leaving Dover, but you, Em, you’re more like the sister I never had, im going to miss you so much.”

Tears started to roll down both of our cheeks. “Oh, look at us” I stated “were a right pair”. We both laughed wiping the tears from our faces.

“You’re doing it though Amz, you’re fulfilling your dream, its what you’ve always wanted to do. You’re now a professional photographer moving to London with Jay to open up you’re own gallery, I`m so proud of you”

“You’re going to make me cry again if you carry on” Amy laughed.

The kettle boiled. Amy set about pouring the water into the cups. Tom walked back into the kitchen and sat down in one of the three chairs that were left, legs open wide as usual. I wonder why he sat like that; mind you I guess it’s obvious. Get that thought out of your head right now.

Amy finished making the tea, my eyes wondered back to Tom trying to focus on his eyes and face rather than anything else. He caught my gaze smiling. It was as though time stopped, as though it was just me and him in the room. It felt like we stared at each other for ages even though it was probably only for a few seconds.

We were broke from our trance by Amy coughing saying that our teas were on the side and to help ourselves to sugar if we wanted. Amy went and sat down next to Tom while I was still standing near the counter adding sugar to my tea.

“Do you take sugar, Tom?” I asked him.

“Yes, one please darling” he replied. Oh my god, he called me darling. My inner fangirl was jumping up and down with joy. I mean he does it to everyone but still he called me it, I loved it when I got called that, especially by men, it was so old fashioned yet so British. The way the world rolled off his tongue. Darling. Darling. So British and so well spoken. I mean me and Amy are both British but he can make any word that rolled off that gorgeous tongue of his sound sexy as hell. Oh, what id love that tongue to do to me. Stop it. Don’t think like that. He could read the dictionary and make it sound sexy. God.

As Tom’s tea was still on the side I took the opportunity to add one sugar to his and two to mine before bringing both cups over to where Amy and Tom were sitting in the chairs.

Tom stood up to take his tea from me “Bless you darling, Thankyou” he said. He did it again.

I sat down in the middle of both Amy and Tom. We sat there in silence for a while drinking our tea, not an awkward silence but a silence that allowed us to gather our thoughts. I broke the silence a while later. “What time is Jay coming to pick you up and drive you to London?” I asked Amy.

“He should be here soon.” Amy looked at the clock, the time read half three. “He’s probably just finished work so I’d imagine he’ll be here soon. Probably about half 5. You will stay until I leave right?”

“Yeah ofcourse, I’ll wait until you get in the van and then I’ll go as ive got a review to write and a stack of paperwork to do” I replied. In all truth I wasn’t sure if I wanted to stay to see her off or not, I mean I did but I didn’t want her to see me cry again.

Tom interrupted my thoughts. “What have you got to write a review on?” he asked looking me in the eyes again, generally seeming interested. I turned to face him, I swear if he looks into my eyes again I’ll loose it. I did however, manage to contain eye contact to reply “Oh, just a film review of `What to Expect when you’re Expecting`. I replied.

“That sounds cool, that’s the film with Cameron Diaz and Matthew Morrison is it not?” he replied, generally interested in every word I had to say. I loved that about him, no matter who he was talking to, whether it was to fans or his fellow actors he always seemed generally happy and interested in what others had to say.

“Yeah, that’s the one. I`m really looking forward to seeing it Purely for Matthew Morrison I got it sent to me through the blog I write for”

“The one Amy was telling me about? `The Film Blog` isn’t it?”

“The Peoples Movies” I corrected him.

“Oh my god, I`m so sorry, I must looked a right tit” I laughed. He always apologised for everything, the silliest little things that really didn’t need an apology. It was kind of cute though.

“Oh, no, no it’s fine honestly it was an easy mistake to make” Tom looked down at his feet, generally embarrassed. Not thinking I put my hand on his knee getting him to look at me. When he looked up I removed it as quick as id put it there putting both hands on my mug to distract myself. What did you do that for? Now ive probably giving him the impression that im interested. Well you are aren’t you? Stupid self conscious.

I sincerely apologise” he said again.

“Tom, will you please, stop apologising. In all your interviews you apologise for everything. Even in the one where you got caught eating chocolate.” he laughed his ehehe throwing his head back his tongue poking out a little bit. God that neck. Stop it!

“I would really like to read some of your writing, especially `The Hollow Crown` review you wrote.” He winked. I blushed. “Perhaps over dinner sometime? Oh my god did Tom Hiddleston really just ask me to go to dinner with him? I looked around to look at Amy but she’d disappeared, obviously to go and freshen up before Jay got here.

Before I could answer there was a knock at the door. Amy came out from the bathroom just in time to answer the door to Jay.

Tom asked if I was done with my tea before getting up and taking my cup from me, taking it over to the sink. He turned to face me. “So dinner sometime?” he asked me again. “Id love to get to know you better, you seem like a very interesting and beautiful young women and you still need to show me you’re writing.” I blushed. He called me beautiful. Why does he want to read my writing, it isn’t that good. Although I have to admit I was pretty happy with my review of `The Hollow Crown. Which he isn’t going to read.

Amy and Jay walked into the kitchen hand in hand. Jay looks a lot like Chace Crawford in my opinion with immaculate brown hair and grey blue eyes wearing dark blue jeans, a dark green t shirt and black converse. Only a certain amount of men could pull off the whole t shirt and jeans look and make it look sexy as hell. Jay was one of them, aswell as Tom obviously; I mean have you seen him in his grey see through t shirt and leather jacket or his black blazer and white t shirt. I swear Tom’s the king of sexy he can pull off anything; he can make a bin bag look sexy. He has no idea of the effect he has on me.

“Hey Jay” I greeted him going over to give him a hug. Jay let go of Amy’s hand.

“Hey Em, how you keeping? Haven’t seen you in a while.” He hugged me back. Tom’s hand clenched into fists beside him. Was he jealous? As soon as Jay let me go, Tom returned to his normal stance, hands by his side, a smile plastered back on his face.

“Yeah, I know, has been a while ive been good, at the office and writing as usual.” I laughed. Jay smiled. “Glad to hear it, keep it up and someone will soon notice what an amazing writer you are”. I smiled. Jay walked over to Tom, Tom held out his hand. Jay shook it bringing him in to a man hug. “Hey mate” Jay said. “How’s filming going?”

“Its going good thanks mate, back to it tomorrow, off to Iceland to finish filming Thor 2, just came back for the BFI Film Awards event and to see Mum and Emma. How’s the photography treating you?”

As Tom and Jay continued to catch up me and Amy picked up the last few bits and bobs from the kitchen including the mugs and chairs to put them in the van.

“I think Tom really likes you, you know” Amy says

“Really? Do you think so?” Oh my god, did she really just say that she thought Tom freaking Hiddleston liked me?

“Oh, please” she said raising her eyebrows, he hasn’t stopped staring at you since he met you and what was with the whole hand holding thing while you spoke, calling you darling and generally wanting to read you’re writing. Surely that’s a few signs that he’s interested?”

“He calls everyone darling and he`s probably just interested in reading the review on `The Hollow Crown` to see what I said about him. Oh while im on that subject” I said. “Out of all the reviews ive written and you’ve read, that’s the first one that comes to mind?”

“Im sorry, I wasn’t thinking. He does generally seem interested though”

“Oh my god, I forgot to tell you. He asked me out to dinner before you came in you know. I squealed.

“Oh my god! He asked you out to dinner, you have to go.”

“That’s if he asks me again”

“What do you mean, if he asks you again? Did you say no?”

“No, don’t be silly, I didn’t get a chance to give him an answer because you came in at the wrong time!”


We were outside by now waiting for the boys to come out. Everything was packed. This was it. The reality hit, my best friend really was leaving to go and live in London with her fiancée.

“Im sorry” she said “you have to keep me posted”

“Ofcourse I will, you’re my best friend” she hugged me, tears starting to fall again. She held me at arms length tears in her eyes. “And you’re mine. Just because im a few hours away it doesn’t change anything. You’re coming to London in a few weeks to help me with wedding plans anyway right? I can’t do any of it without my maid of honour and best friend.” She winked. I hugged her again. I always assumed that id have been her maid of honour as we’d spoke about it since we were little but she hadn’t asked me until now.

“You want me to be your maid of honour, oh my god, Amy ofcourse I will, it will be my pleasure”.

“Who knows” she said, “I think Jay is going to ask Tom to be his best man so you may wanna get in there, especially as its tradition for the maid of honour and the best man to cop off with each other.”

“Amy!” she laughed. I raised my eyebrows at her.

Just then Tom and Jay came out of the house laughing. “I’ll give you the best stag do you can imagine” Tom said giving Jay a pat on the back, throwing his head back and laughing his ehehe again. Man that laugh was infectious.

“Guess that answers our question” Amy muttered under her breath. I elbowed her in the ribs.

“Ow” she shrieked.

Jay and Tom came over to us. “Ready to go babe?” Jay asked Amy. Amy smiled. “Yeah, I guess so” she replied sadly. She looked at me tears forming in her eyes again. We’d been through so much together in all these years and now it was time for my childhood friend to leave her childhood home.

“Go, you’ll be great, I’ll see you in a couple of weeks” I said, more to reassure myself than her. She hugged me then hugged Tom before getting in the van.

Jay came over to say goodbye giving me a hug. “Take good care of her” I said to him. “I’ll see you in a couple of weeks”.

“Bye Em, I will do, don’t worry.” I smiled.

He man hugged Tom telling him he’ll call him before he got in the van, shut the door, started the engine and drove off with my best friend.


Chapter 3

Me and Tom stood there for a few moments watching as the van turned the corner. I waited until the van was out of sight before I let the tears fall. I sniffed. Tom came up behind me offering me a tissue.

“Thanks” I said offering him a small smile and accepting the tissues. “I must look a right mess, I don’t know why im so upset, im seeing her in a couple of weeks”

“Don’t apologise darling” he said wiping away my tears. “Its perfectly natural, she’s your best friend, you’ve known her pretty much your entire life”

“Yeah. We’ve been through so much and this house holds so many memories”

“Just because Amy’s left the house and because it’s up for sale it doesn’t mean that the memories are gone darling. They’ll always be in here” he touched my heart. I wonder if he could tell if it’s beating fast than it usually does all because of him. I smiled.

“Thanks Tom”

“My pleasure darling” he smiled. It reached his eyes. “Now, I believe Amy has asked you to be her maid of honour has she not?”

“She has, why do you ask?”

“Because Jay has asked me to be his best man and you know that the maid of honour and best man are meant to get together, don’t you? He laughed. Not Tom too. Amy had already said that, it made me doubt if it was actually true or if Amy was right and that Tom did like me and was using it as an excuse to take me as his date. Maybe both.

“Now you haven’t an excuse to not have dinner with me especially as were both in London in a couple of weeks sorting out wedding plans with Jay and Amy are we not?” He smiled and returned to being a sincere gentleman. Getting down on one knee placing my hand in his, palm down he said “It would be my pleasure if you would accompany me to dinner while were both in London in a few weeks time my fair maiden.” He then kissed the back of my hand looking up at me with puppy dog eyes just like in the scene in `The Hollow Crown` where he proposes to Catherine. Who could resist that look? I practically melted into a puddle above him.

“Ofcourse Tom, it would be an honour” he smiled and got up.

“Now love if you would allow me to have your phone number then I can text you when I get to London and sort out when we can meet”. Tom handed me his phone and I began punching my number in, pulling my phone out of my bag, probably a bit too eager for him to do the same. He smiled putting his number in my phone.

“Now then darling, will you allow me to walk you home?” always the gentleman, he really is perfect and you’re going out to dinner with him in a few weeks. My fangirl self jumped for joy.

“Erm, well I only live round the corner and not meaning to sound rude and not that I don’t want you to walk me home because I do but I think that-“ I trailed off blushing. Tom saw my hesitation. “You think what dear?” he asked with genuiune concern. Did I admit that even though id only known him for a few hours that I really liked him and that I didn’t want to leave him and that if he walked me home that I likely wouldn’t let him leave?

“I think…I think that…if you walked me home I wouldn’t let you go” I said embarrassed. Did I really just tell Tom Hiddleston how I felt? Idiot. I blushed. He laughed his ehehe. “Well in that case I best not because in all fairness darling I don’t think id want to leave.” I smiled.


He took my hand again placing another kiss on the back of it. “It was a pleasure to meet you Emily darling”.

“The pleasure is all mine Tom, really, you have no idea how much of an honour it is to meet you”.

“Oh darling, bless you” he still held my hand. Was this going to be a regular occurrence? Does he really like my hands as much as I love his? I have to admit I usually hated my hands but Tom holding them made me not hate them as much. His hands fit perfectly in mine. We stood there in our little bubble staring in each others eyes for ages.


I broke the gaze and silence first. “Well, I...i suppose I better go. No matter how much I don’t want to leave this review and paperwork won’t do itself”. I smiled weakly.

“I guess it won’t” he agreed. “I’ve got to get back myself, I want to refresh my mind of the script before I leave tomorrow” he smiled. I smiled back.

“I hope you have a great time in Iceland Tom” I went to let go of his hand but he pulled it back pulling me into a hug. I embraced him breathing in his scent. He smelled of cologne and Tom. Heavenly. Oh my god, he gives the best hugs ever can I just stay here in his embrace, at Amy’s house where all the memories are?

We embraced for what felt like ages, not long after though he pulled away. “Thankyou darling. Keep up the writing. I look forward to reading some when I see you in a few weeks in London for dinner. I`m looking forward to it already.” I smiled. “Text me when you’re home darling”

“I will, Thankyou again Tom you have no idea how much it meant to meet you, it was a pleasure”

“The pleasure was all mine darling” he leaned in and kissed my cheek.

And with a smile on my face I waved goodbye and left. It wasn’t until I got round the corner that I realised I had just met, held hands and hugged the Tom Hiddleston. Oh my god!


Chapter 4.

When I got home I put my bag in the hall went upstairs and changed out of my jeans and put on my trackies and hoodie. I didn’t see why when I was in the comfort of my own home I couldn’t just lounge in comfy clothing, it wasn’t like anyone was coming round and I found it easier to concentrate on paperwork and watch films when I was comfortable.

I went downstairs and got my phone out of my bag before going in to the kitchen to boil the kettle. While the kettle was boiling I typed out a text to Tom.


Hey Tom, just to let you know I got home ok. It was a pleasure to meet you. Thankyou again-Emily x

I thought that was ok, not too fangirly just like texting an old friend. Even though he wasn’t a friend, he was Tom freaking Hiddleston. I still can’t believe I met him just this afternoon and I now have his number. I didn’t expect a reply straight away or atall for that matter as I knew how busy he was and that he had to head back to London.

I was surprised when my phone bleeped a few minutes later telling me I had a new message. I looked at the screen. 1 new message: Tom. Oh my god. Tom Hiddleston just text me back! I opened the text. It read:

Hello Emily darling. I`m glad that you got home safe. The pleasure was all mine my lady. I look forward to seeing you again in a few weeks time. I hope you enjoy watching What to Expect when you’re Expecting-it is a brilliant film. I look forward to reading your review-Tom xx

I typed a quick reply not wanting to annoy him.

I look forward to it too Tom. Just about to sit down and watch it with a cup of tea. Hope you get back to London ok and enjoy Iceland. Looking forward to hearing all about it in a few weeks time. Emily xx

Once the kettle had boiled I poured the hot water into the mug. While the tea was brewing I went into the living room and drew the curtains. I had a thing about not being able to watch a film without having the curtains drawn. I liked the full cinematic experience.

After the curtains were drawn I went back into the kitchen and finished making the tea, grabbing a galaxy bar out of the fridge on my way back to the living room. Who can watch a film without chocolate?

I put the tea and galaxy on the table as I set up the DVD. I went and sat back down on the sofa getting comfortable and pressed play. Just as the adverts started there was a knock at the door. Urgh that’s always the way, everytime I get some time to myself I always get interrupted. Who could it be anyway; it’s not like im expecting anyone. I checked the clock on the wall, 7pm it read. The only person that would come round at this time would be Amy but id imagine she’s about half way to London by now.

They knocked again.

I got up off the sofa, paused the film and went to see who was at the door. I opened it and my mouth flew open. Tom stood there looking even more handsome that he did this afternoon in the same blue shirt with his famous leather jacket over the top, dark blue jeans and cowboy boots. He stood there with a smile on his face and a bag of popcorn. Oh my god, Tom Hiddleston is at my door and im stood here, hair a mess wearing grey trackies and a blue hoodie.

“Hello darling, do you mind if I come in?” his smile grew wider.

“T…Tom” I stuttered “Erm sure” I stepped aside allowing him to walk into the house.

“Forgive the intrusion dear but I didn’t want to wait another two weeks to see you and it turned out that I haven’t got to go to Iceland until Sunday afternoon to shoot again on Monday so I text Amy asking for your address so I could surprise you and come and watch the movie with you. Is that ok darling?”

I stood there in shock; I still couldn’t believe that Tom Hiddleston was in my house asking to watch a movie with me.

“O...Ofcourse Tom that would be lovely. Oh how rude of me, please come in and make yourself at home. Please excuse the state of me, I wasn’t expecting company and prefer to be comfortable when watching a film but now as I have company I’ll go and make myself, look atleast a bit presentable.” I chuckled nervously.

“Nonsense darling, don’t go and change on my account, you still look beautiful without make up and in your sweats.” I blushed.

I changed the subject quickly asking if Tom wanted a cup of tea before settling down to watch the movie. He said yes and we both head into the kitchen. I reboiled the kettle making him a cup of tea. He watches me intently as I do so.

Once the tea was made we headed back in to the living room where the film is paused on the adverts.

“You came round just in time, I had literally only just put the DVD in” I smiled. He smiled back taking off his leather jacket and placing it over the chair in the corner of the room before taking off his cowboy boots and putting them under the table.

I stand in the middle of the room feeling weary as to what to do. Just act normal. Bu...but Tom Hiddleston, the Thomas William Hiddleston, who you’ve had a fangirl crush on since last year is here, in my house, in my living room wanting to watch a film with me. Oh my god!

He must have read my thoughts because he sat down on the sofa legs wide apart getting comfortable and asked if I was okay and to pretend like he wasn’t there. Really Tom, how is that possible when your for one, sitting like that and two sat there in that blue shirt which us fangirls love. Just kill me, kill me right now.

I gave in in the end and sat down and pressed play on the movie pretending like he wasn’t there. Which was fine until his ehehe laugh surrounded the room at a funny part of the movie. I couldn’t help but laugh too his laugh is so infectious.

He watched me intently throughout most of the film. On more than one occasion I had to tell him to keep his eyes on the screen rather than the mess the other side of the sofa. He refused saying that he’d already seen the film and no matter how much he enjoyed the film and watching the acting talent in it, he would much prefer to stare at me because I was apparently much more beautiful. Tom Hiddleston called me beautiful!

By the end of the movie, which I have to admit I didn’t really concentrate on I found myself cuddled into his side with his hand around my waist. Oh my god I`m cuddled up to Tom Hiddleston watching a movie. It just felt so natural, as though it was meant to happen. He smelled heavenly. I would never tire of his smell, a mixture of mint, the cologne he was wearing and Tom.

As the credits had started rolling I got up out of the havan of Tom`s arms and stopped the movie taking the DVD out of the player.

“What did you think darling?” he asked with a grin. He knew fairly well I hadn’t been paying attention.

“You’ll have to wait to read my review” I said with a wink. Of the film, not being cuddled in Tom`s arms. One thing was for sure, I knew I had to rewatch it to fully appreciate it and write a decent review because I knew that if I was to write a review now, it certainly wouldn’t be a review on the film, more about how perfect Tom Hiddleston is.

Tom put his shoes and leather jacket back on before taking his cup back out into the kitchen. I watched him intently knowing that the evening was coming to an end which I really didn’t want. I insisted I could have taken the cup out to the kitchen but he asked what kind of gentleman he would be if he didn’t. I couldn’t argue with that.

Turning to face me he asked “Would it be ok to take you out to dinner tomorrow evening before I travel to Iceland Sunday afternoon?”

“Ofcourse Tom, I’d like that very much. I smiled.

“As would I darling.” He came over to me planting a kiss on my hand. “Although…” he looked embarrassed.

“Although what Tom? I asked with a matter of concern in my eyes. He looked down at his shoes. I placed my hand on his chin making him look at me, looking into those gorgeous blue eyes that pierced my soul.

“Although...” he sighed “I`m afraid I will have to let you choose the restaurant we go to as I don’t know the area as well as you do” I burst out laughing. He looked up at me a smile forming on his lips.

“Tom, really it’s not a problem I wasn’t expecting you to take me out to dinner tomorrow I would have waited until London, although that would have been torture. So really it isn’t a problem I know the perfect place. A restaurant just up the road from here actually, called The Beefeater” I smiled. He smiled back although it didn’t reach his eyes.

He got down on one knee looking up at me. Oh my god, he’s doing it again, exactly what he done this afternoon, down on one knee, in my kitchen. Oh my god, imagine if this was our house and he was asking me to marry him. Stop that!

“Emily, my darling, I sincerely apologise and promise that when you come to London I will take you out for the best meal you have ever had. Please forgive me” he said with puppy dog eyes. I smiled. Why is he so adorable and such a gentleman?

“Get up.” He got up smiling.

“Am I forgiven?” he pleaded with his eyes.

“Tom, there’s nothing to apologise for but if it makes you feel better for me to say yes you’re forgiven, then yes you’re forgiven. I laughed, he laughed too poking his tongue out before kissing me on the cheek taking my arm and interlocking it with his to escort me to the door.

Once we were at the door he hugged me and kissed my hand. “Until tomorrow my lady, I’ll pick you up at 7. Thankyou for allowing me to come round and watch the film with you. I look forward to tomorrow evening, good night my love, a thousand times good night.” I smiled when in reality he had melted me to a puddle quoting Shakespeare and Romeo and Juliet to me.

“Goodnight Tom, sweet dreams I look forward to tomorrow evening.

With that he was out the door walking into the night.

I went to bed happier than I had in ages that night, dreaming of Tom and seeing him tomorrow night.

 
Chapter 5

The next morning I woke up with a smile on my face. I couldn’t contain my happiness, Tom had that effect on me anyway but metting him yesterday and knowing that I was having dinner with him this evening made me even more happy and excited.

Unfortunately however I couldn’t waste a whole day thinking about my evening with Tom as there were jobs to be done. I text Amy seeing if she settled in okay and that she was mean for not telling me that Tom was coming over but saying that it turned out to be a lovely evening and that he was taking me out again tonight.

I then had some breakfast and a cup of tea before setting having a shower and getting on with the stack of paperwork I was dreading.

Once I got stuck in I was fine however and got it finished within a couple of hours and sat down with yet another cup of tea (you could tell I was British purely by the amount of tea and chocolate digestives I got through) and What to Expect When You’re expecting for the second time that weekend. I will get through this without thinking about Tom, get my review done and see him this evening.

It was four pm by the time i`d watched the film. It was good but not as good as I was expecting, no pun intended. I then sat down and wrote my review not before reading the reply from Amy.

Hey Em, settled in really well. It’s really nice and the gallery is absolutely breathtaking the photos look amazing, can’t believe I have my own gallery of photos. Can’t wait for you to see them. Haha I`m sorry but I knew how much you liked him and he seemed to like you too by the way he couldn’t keep his eyes off you yesterday afternoon. I’ll call you tomorrow for details and our weekly Downton chat as I can’t come round and watch it with you. I miss you. Enjoy dinner. Amz xxx

After writing my review and emailing it to Paul, the editor of the blog I phoned for a taxi to pick us up at five past 7, took a shower and got ready for my dinner with Tom. I decided on a simple yet comfy dark blue silky knee length dress with a black ribbon around the middle, my pink flats, I never was one to wear heels, why cause pain to your feet when you didn’t need to? mind you saying that these particular shoes did cause me pain on a night out clubbing with the girls a few months back but I wasn’t walking anywhere so I didn’t think it was that big of a deal. I paired that with my black shrug and brown 50s style bag and decided to have my hair down as I didn’t like it up as it reminded me of being back at the office.

I had just finished applying my mascara when the doorbell rang. I took one last look in the mirror before going downstairs to answer it. Right on time. 7 on the dot. I opened the door to the most beautiful sight, Tom stood there in a white shirt with the sleeves rolled up to his elbows, a black waist coat and blue and black stripped tie with black trousers and slacks. He looked like an angel.

“Good evening darling, you look absolutely beautiful” he said kissing my cheek and presenting me with the most beautiful bunch of red roses. I accepted them giving them a quick sniff before kissing his cheek.

“Thankyou Tom, they’re beautiful.” I smiled. “Come in while I put these in a vase, the taxi is booked for five past 7 so it should be here any minute. I went into the kitchen and put them in a vase putting them on my kitchen table. Tom stood in the hallway looking for the taxi.

It pulled up just as I had finished putting the vase on the table. I came back into the hall. “Taxi’s here darling.” Tom said coming over to me linking his arm through his. “Now my dear, allow me to escort you to the taxi and to dinner.” I smiled “Thankyou kind sir” I giggled giving him a small curtsey. He laughed throwing his head back ehehe “My lady, your chariot awaits” he said holding the door of the taxi open for me to get in first. He joined me a few seconds later, taking my hand in his across the seat.

Once we arrived at the restaurant Tom helped me out of the taxi escorting me into the restaurant. It was a beautiful restaurant, a place I’d come on numerous occasions throughout the years, a meal with my auntie for my birthday, to celebrate my exam results with my mum, dad and nan, dinner with Amy for a catch up and glass of wine. It was one of my favourite restaurants I came to quite often. Quite and quaint a perfect place to have dinner with Tom without him being noticed.

We got escorted to our seats Tom pulling the chair out for me allowing me to sit before going round the opposite side of the table and sitting down himself. What a gentleman.

The wine and conversation flowed throughout dinner with Tom asking how my day was and about my writing, how I got into it etc and how I found out about his work. Even though I knew quite a lot about him through interviews it was nice to get to know Tom as Tom rather than Tom Hiddleston the actor and I surprised myself by acting like a normal human being around him rather than a fangirl, asking him about his family and what it was like living in London.

Our dinner arrived half through the topic of what it was like for him growing up in London. Tom ordered the steak and chips while I ordered my normal paprika chicken with chips and BBQ sauce.

The conversation slowed for a while as we enjoyed our meal stealing glances at each other across the table but then picked up again when began playing quietly in the background.

“I love this song” I exclaimed. Tom smiled.

“What other music do you like?” he asked.

I continued to tell him about my taste in music saying that I had a varied range of music on my iPod including some of his songs of the day and that in a way I had him to thank for introducing me to new music and some of my favourite songs including Mumford and Sons I will wait and Friday in Love by The Cure. With the mention of Mumford and Sons I automatically thought of Carey Mulligan and how she married Marcus Mumford of the band a few months back. Not realising I had said it out loud he said “Carey is lovely, a good friend of mine actually” he smiled. I swear my eyes popped out of my head! “You know Carey Mulligan oh my god I love her” Ofcourse he does you idiot, he’s English, she’s English, they’re both actors, what do you expect?” He chuckled at my excitement saying that he could introduce me if I liked. At this I totally freaked out and excused myself to go the ladies rooms before I completely made a fool of myself.

While in the bathroom I looked at myself in the mirror and splashed my face with water before returning to the table. On returning to the table I found that Tom had stood, waiting for me to return and that our plates had been cleared. He came round to my side of the table pulling my chair back out allowing me to sit. I apologised for how I acted saying I get a little too excitable when my favourite actors of films are mentioned. He said not to worry and that he thought it was cute. I smiled.

Just as Tom sat back down the waitress came over and asked if we wanted dessert or coffee. Toms face lit up. I knew from his interviews that desert was his favourite part of the meal and that he loved his pudding and I knew exactly what he was going to order. “Now who’s turn is it to get excited?” I asked laughing.

“Ehehe I cant help it if I like my pudding!”

Our menus were once again handed back to us to choose our deserts. I took one look at the menu and knew exactly what he was going to order. Baked Cheesecake. I looked at him and laughed both reciting what he was going to have at the same time. We both were in fits of giggles at this. “You have done your research” he laughed. “Bless you. What will you have?”

“I think I’ll have the cheesecake too.” He smiled.

The waitress came over and took our order and when he recited the order I looked at him and giggled. He looked at me out of the corner of his eye trying not to laugh. Once the waitress had gone he turned to me and we were in fits of giggles again.

Once we had calmed down he asked me about my favourite films I mentioned how much I loved Moulin Rouge, Atonement and Breakfast at Tiffany’s ofcourse all of his works, especially Midnight in Paris. I also told him about my love for Keira Knightley, James McAvoy, Audrey Hepburn and ofcourse him. I asked him about his favourite films and what it was like working with all the amazing actors and directors he had gotten to work with and that he was excited to go back to playing Loki again. I listened contently; I loved hearing him talk about how much he loves acting and the character he plays. Especially Loki, he’s like a little kid at Christmas when he talks about Loki and a fanboy. Bless him he’s so cute.

Our pudding arrived just when he was telling me what it was like working with Owen Wilson on Midnight in Paris and he done his impression which had me in fits of giggles and admiring his talent. Was there anything this man couldn’t do?

We finished our deserts enjoying more conversation. Once we finished our meal Tom excused himself to the men’s room while the waitress came and cleared our plates and put the bill on the table. I went to look at how much it cost and to pay but before I could look Tom came back from the men’s room and up behind me taking the bill out of my hand. “Don’t even think about it darling, the gentleman always pays” I raised my eyes and said that I didn’t mind as he paid for the taxi and I chose the restaurant.

In the end he had to take bag away from me so I couldn’t pay. Once I’d agreed he came back round to my side of the table took my coat off the chair and holding it out to me allowing me to put my arms in. As I don’t up my coat he handed me back my bag and kissed me on the cheek taking my arm and lacing it through his to escort me out of the restaurant.

As it was a nice evening we decided to walk back as Tom said it didn’t seem that far and that he could do with the fresh air to clear the alcohol out of his system. He took hold of my hand interlacing his fingers with mine. I loved his big hands with his long slender fingers, and mine fit perfectly into his.

When we got back to the house he walked me to my door and bid me good night by kissing me on the lips. The kiss got pretty heated after a while his hands having moved to my waist and his tongue asking permission with I allowed. My hands found their way to his hair running through his gorgeous blonde locks.

He pulled away after a while putting his head against mine catching his breath, apologising for getting carried away. I asked him if he wanted to come in but he said if he did he’d cross the line of being a gentleman. I gave him another kiss which he stopped pretty quickly saying that he didn’t want to rush things. I agreed even though a little part of me wanted him to come in and see where it led. He thanked me for a lovely evening gave me another kiss and said that he couldn’t wait to see me again before walking out of the gate and turning to give me one last smile and yet another Shakespeare quote, this time in the role of Henry V and the proposal scene between Henry and Catherine. “Your have witchcraft in your lips my lady” I chuckled bidding him goodnight and watching him walk down the road.

I woke up at around 10 the following morning with two texts one from Tom and one from Amy.

Good morning darling. I trust you slept well. Thankyou for a lovely evening last night my dear, sorry if I pushed you too far or rushed you in any way. I leave for Iceland at 1 will be filming most of the three days im there. I`ll text you when I can. Have a good week my dear and I’ll text you when I land. Sorry once again. Tom xxx

Hope you had a great night last night. Can’t wait for details. I’ll call you later. Amz xxx

I typed quick replies back.

Morning Tom. I did Thankyou, hope you slept well too, not sure if it was the wine or that kiss ;) ehehe. You really are rubbing off on me, now I`m even laughing like you. Thankyou for a great even last night and for your company. You didn’t push me too far Tom, if anything I wanted you to push it further. Enjoy Iceland don’t get up to too much mischief. Looking forward to your text. Stop apologising, its fine. Ems xxx

I did. Shall spill all later. Call me at half 10 as got an hour and a half ep tonight. Love. Ems xxx

Once id sent them I got in the shower and got dressed and had a bit of tidy up around the house, sent a few emails and had a lounged day counting down the time till Downton Abbey. Tom text a few hours later.

I did Thankyou my dear. Im sorry, I tend to have that effect on people ehehe. Maybe next time I will ;). I can’t promise that darling, I am Loki the God of Mischief, burdened with glorious purpose. - T xxx

I checked the time 3 o clock. Tom would be on the plane by now so I waited until he text me.

I sat down with a book to waste time before Sunday night TV which started with the X Factor results, a load of rubbish really but there was nothing else on and I only watched it because it was on the same channel as Downton Abbey.

9 o clock soon rolled round, a time of night that I loved and hated on a Sunday, I loved it because I could escape for an hour into the 1920s but hated it because I meant I had to get up for work the next morning.

Amy rung at half 10 as promised. She used to come round and watch Downton Abbey with me so it was a little weird speaking to her on the phone than he sitting right next to me. She demanded to know the details about last night which I told her everything, even the kiss.

“OH MY GOD, HE KISSED YOU!” she practically shouted down the phone. I laughed and continued to tell her everything, about how soft his lips were and how much of he gentleman he was stopping it even if I did want to continue and see where it lead. We then went on to our normal topics discussing her art gallery and the latest happenings of the Crawley household of Downton Abbey. She sounded so happy bless her. I was so proud of her.

Work was no different to how it always was, sat at my desk doing paperwork letting my mind wonder to Tom as it often did, just in a different way as id now actually met him. I still carried on with my reviews and text Tom everytime I got a new DVD sent to me.

He seemed to be enjoying Iceland texting me here and there letting me know that he was ok and that he was having fun, he also sent me a picture of him outside a café that said Loki and kept his promise and text me when he landed saying he had a surprise for me when I came to London. I wonder what it is?

The two weeks flew by and I soon found myself getting on a train to London to see Amy again. I missed her, it wasn’t the same without her being around the corner, there for silly things like if I need sugar or if Amy had had an argument with Jay. We were both there for each other at whatever time of day, or night as the case had been on quite a few occasions, when Jay had come home drunk and tried to pick a fight with her or just when we had both had too many glasses of wine whilst watching Sex and the City. I really missed her and was really excited to see her again, even if it had only been two weeks. Two weeks is a long time when you’re used to seeing someone everyday.

Amy rang the following Sunday to talk more about wedding plans than anything else. She asked when I was seeing Tom again so we could arrange wedding plans around me seeing him.

Tom…Tom…I got butterflies just thinking about seeing him again. The fangirl in me was freaking out. I really like him and I assumed by the way he kissed me that night he took me out to dinner and texting me saying how he couldn’t wait to see me and about the surprise he had for me that he was as excited to see me as I was him.

Chapter 6

Me and Amy had always loved London, going up to shop in Oxford Street, seeing shows and sightseeing.Id never stayed in London longer than a day so I was excited to experience different parts of the city.

Amy had been up to London a lot before she moved there for business meetings about the gallery. It seemed to be going well, she often spoke about how well it was going and how many photos she’d sold. I was excited to see it, my best friend’s exhibition at her own gallery in London!

A few hours later I arrived in London at Kings Cross St Pancras. Amy said she’d meet me at the station then get the tube to Southbank. We’d always loved Southbank, walking over the bridge to look at Westminster Abbey.



True to her word there she was in her jeans, white shirt and black blazer, hair tied up in a messy bun on the top of her head. She’d just finished work by the looks of things. As soon as she saw me she came running up to me practically knocking me to the floor in a hug.

“Hey Amz” I said hugging her back. After a tight Amy hug we pulled apart.

“Oh look, now you’ve crumpled my blazer” she exclaimed laughing.

“Haha, Im sorry, but two weeks without not having an Amy hug and seeing you was horrible.” I stroked the blazer. “Sorry blazer” I said laughing.

She grabbed my hand linking her arm with mine as we went and got on the tube. I loved getting the tube; most people hated it always saying how busy it was. I saw it as a place to people watch, lots of different people, business men in their suits reading that days edition of `The Evening Standard`, families with the children spending the day in London sightseeing, groups of teenage girls with Primark bags who had obviously used Primark to their advantage. This was one of the reasons I loved London, there was always different people.

I could really see myself living here getting soaked up in the atmosphere and although I missed Amy being at home in Dover, her living here certainly had the perks giving me the opportunity to visit for more than a day. One thing was for certain I was certainly going to enjoy these few weeks here not having to worry about work, just two weeks in a city I loved with my best friend sorting out her wedding. This was going to be a good few weeks, I could just feel it.

Getting off the tube I found a text from Tom. My heart stopped. Apparently I stopped walking to the exit in the process as groups of men in suits and families carrying luggage pushed past me and Amy came back asking me what was wrong.

“I just got a text from Tom” I stuttered. Even though I had been texting him quite a lot I still got a shock when I saw his name appear on my phone.

“And? What does it say?” I pressed the read button.

Hello darling hope you got to London ok, be ready tomorrow for your surprise. I’ll pick you up at 10 from Amy’s. Can’t wait to see you darling.-Tom xxx

I typed a quick reply:

Hi Tom. Arrived in London about half an hour ago. Just got off the tube with Amy, making my way to hers now. Can you just tell me already, you’ve kept it from me for the past week and I need to know what to wear? Looking forward to seeing you too. Ems xxx

I passed the phone to Amy once I replied letting her read the text.

“I know what it is, I know what it is!” she exclaimed jumping up and down. Aww I loved how Amy still got excited about the littlest things, always jumping up and down or clapping her hands together like a seal. She may be twenty five but she’s still a kid at heart. Bless her.

“What is it? How do you know? Will she please tell me so I know what to wear atleast?” I begged. I didn’t like not being prepared for things. I was always a planner. I wished I was more spontaneous at times, I was hoping this trip would make me more spontaneous if anything.
Before she could reply my phone beeped with a new text from Tom. Amy passed the phone back to me.

Glad you got her safe my dear. I`m afraid you’re going to have to wait one more day, all you need to know is that you are going to love it darling, atleast I hope you will. As to what to wear, you look beautiful in anything but for this occasion casual wear will be fine love. I look forward to it. Until tomorrow my lady-Tom xxx

“Great, neither of you are giving anything away” I moaned. “It’s not fair, why wont neither of you tell me?” I exclaimed.

“Because Tom wants it to be a surprise. It’ll be worth it, you’ll love it, trust me.”

And with that the subject was dropped.

Once we got to Amy’s she showed me around the house I then went and unpacked while she made us both a cup of tea before spent the rest of the day and evening lounging around in our pjs, ordered Chinese, caught up with an episode of Gossip Girl on in the background. Just like old times. In the back of my mind however I couldn’t help wondering what Tom had planned for tomorrow.


Chapter 7

I awoke early the next morning, bright and early at 8am. Today was the day. I was going on a date with Tom Hiddleston if you could call it a date. Although we had kissed and stolen odd glances at each other here and there. Does that mean were going out? Me going out with Tom Hiddleston. Tom Hiddleston as my boyfriend. Oh my god oh my god oh my god! I guess I’ll find out sooner or later.

I put on my hoodie and headed downstairs to make myself a cup of tea. I found a note from Amy next to the kettle:

Morning Em,

Sorry got called into the gallery for work. Enjoy your day with Tom and me and Jay will meet up with you and Tom later for dinner.

Enjoy!

Amz

Xoxo

I filled the kettle waiting for it to boil placing milk and a teabag into a mug. I couldn’t help my mind wondering back to that night with Tom when he took me out to dinner and kissed me, rather passionately if I do say so myself. It made me wonder what he meant at the end of the night that if he came in he would have crossed the line of being a gentleman. Hmm I wonder what that would have meant what it would have been like to do more than kiss him and run my hands through his hair, trailing kisses down his perfect neck. Stop that right now! He probably doesn’t think of you in that way. I was pulled out of my thoughts by the kettle boiling. I poured the water into the mug and let it stew; adding two sugars once it was made.

After I drunk my tea I went upstairs and had a quick shower before deciding on what to wear. Tom said to dress casual, what the hell is casual? Jeans with a nice top? As it was beginning to get cold out I finally settled on my jeans from Topshop, my I love Wendy t shirt (hoping to god that I wouldn’t have to take off and if I did, that he’d laugh) and my dark red Primark jumper with black boots, my leopard print scarf and black flyer jacket.

Just as I was putting the finishing touches to my makeup, a little mascara and lip-gloss there was a knock at the door. I looked at my watch dead on 10. Never late bless him.

As soon as I heard the knock on the door my heart leapt out of my chest. Oh my god Tom Hiddleston is here to take me out. Okay just breathe.

Once I composed myself I ran downstairs checked I looked ok in the mirror in the hall and opened the door to the most beautiful sight.

Tom stood there in a pair of dark jeans his cowboy boots and that grey see through t shirt and leather jacket that made all us fangirls swoon, including myself. His hair was a browny blonde, a few curls here and there compared to when I last saw him a few weeks ago when it was completely blonde and really curly. I swear he was an angel.

“Hello darling, ready to go?” he asked. I nodded stepping out of the house closing the door behind me. He kissed both of my cheeks and took my hand putting it in the crook of his arm leading me out of the house and onto the busy streets of London.

“You look lovely darling” he stated kissing my cheek. “It’s so good to see you” he smiled. “Now would it be ok if we walk, it’s just I wanted to show you the sights and they’re awfully close together. We will however get a taxi to where were going later would that be ok?”

I laughed at his sincerity. Such a gentleman. “Ofcourse Tom, there’s nothing better than walking around London exploring the sights, especially with you” I blushed. He smiled. We began walking in silence admiring the sights. A few minutes Tom spoke again. “Also, if you don’t mind, I’ve devised a plan for the day, I hope you don’t mind” he asked.

“Ofcourse not Tom, not at all, I always like to plan things in advance, although sometimes I wish I was more spontaneous. He stopped walking; I looked up at him as he looked down into my eyes. “Nonsense, darling, it doesn’t hurt to plan things, although in my profession everything is always planned and Luke just tells me where I need to be and at what time”. He continued walking offering me his arm again. I took it and we continued walking.

“That must be hard” I asked

“It is, sometimes.” He took a breath before continuing. “Sometimes I just wish I could plan things for myself you know? Rather than having them planned for me.” I thought a saw a hint of sadness in his eyes but it was gone as soon as it came and he continued with a big smile on his face. “But this is why getting to plan my day with you was lovely”. I smiled. He stopped again taking both of my hands in his.

“I’ve been looking forward to this for ages, seeing you again, surprising you, and having you back on my arm. I really like you, Emily; I haven’t been able to stop thinking about you”. My heart swelled. I smiled. Did Tom Hiddleston really just say that he liked me and hasn’t been able to stop thinking about me? Oh my god!

I looked up into his eyes, his big beautiful blue eyes showing so much love. Oh how beautiful he is. I removed one of my hands from his and placed it on his cheek running my hand up and down his stubbly chin. So smooth. I always loved stubble, especially his. He moved the side of his face into my hand so it was rubbing up against my hand and kissed me palm.

I looked into his eyes and replied “Ive been looking forward to this too Tom. I really like spending time with you.

All of a sudden his lips were on mine, a soft, sweet and gentle kiss which showed so much passion. He tasted of mint. I longed for him and by the way his kisses were getting more passionate he longer for me, too.

He all of a sudden pulled away. I moaned at the loss of contact. He put his forehead against mine catching his breath.

“I`m so sorry darling I got a bit carried away, if I hadn’t have stopped I would have taken you back to Amy’s and made love to you right there and then but I don’t want to rush things with you and mess this up as I really like you and want to enjoy today” I smiled giving him a quick kiss on the lips.

“You’re right; I don’t want to rush things either.” I replied. He took my left hand putting it back in the crook of his arm and continued walking. He smiled. “Now then, back to the plan. How does a bit of sightseeing before a spot of lunch and then your surprise sound my dear?”

“Perfect” I smiled. “Although anything sounds perfect with you” I blushed. “Will you please tell me my surprise now?” He took my left hand out of the crook of his arm interlacing my fingers with his and continued walking.

We stole a few glances and smiles at each other whilst I waited for an answer as to what my surprise was. He looked over at me winked bringing my hand to his lips and kissing the back of it. “Patience darling, you’ll find out soon enough. I better have the suspense is killing me.

We continued walking and exploring the beautiful city that is London. Tom`s London, taking me to some of his favourite places including Southbank as it was near Amy’s house and one of my favourite places to visit. We looked out over the river for a while at Westminster Abbey before walking down the steps to the shops and restaurants underneath the bridge where Tom let me browse Foyles book shop until my heart was content. I loved coming to this bookshop and found that I always bought Audrey Hepburn postcards from there to add to my collection and browse the film magazines.

Tom seemed to enjoy it too buying a copy of his favourite Shakespeare play, Henry V. I asked him why he wanted a pocket copy when I assumed he had a regular copy at home but he replied “So I can quote my favourite scenes to you ofcourse darling, especially the scenes between Henry and Catherine” before winking at me and giving me a chaste kiss on the lips and taking my hand and taking me to Piccadilly Circus, a place I hadn’t been before and which Tom claimed was better at night because it was all lit up.

We then took a stroll to Covent Garden, my favourite place in London. I loved how people were just so carefree, sitting on the cobbled steps eating a sandwich without a care in the world.

I laughed when Tom dragged me into the Disney Shop in Covent Garden claiming that you were never too old for Disney, saying that he had to go and `avenge` Thor. He walked in and went straight over to the Avengers part of the store finding a Loki and Thor figure making them pretend to fight, Tom really got into the role of Loki repeating the `I am Loki of Asgard and I am burdened with glorious purpose line`. I was in fits of giggles. I just had to capture this moment and pulled out my camera snapping a picture. Tom then grabbed the camera from me taking a picture of me before taking some of me and him in different poses. Us smiling, him kissing my cheek and sticking our tongues out.

I then went over to the Winnie the Pooh section of the store grabbing an Eeyore from the shelf. Eeyore was always my favourite character. I hugged him and Tom snapped a picture and said that he and I were too cute to stay there and insisted that he buy it for me along with a Loki and Thor figure to give to Chris as a joke. I tried to argue with him saying that I could pay for it and that I didn’t need it as I had an Eeyore at home I got from Disneyland Florida when I was ten but he was having none of it claiming that `you can never have too many Eeyore`s`. He’s so cute. A kid at heart, bless him.

After about an hour we finally dragged ourselves away from the Disney store with Tom saying that we had to eat now if we wanted to get there in time as he wasn’t sure how long we’d be there.

Tom said there was a nice Italian restaurant close by that done the best spaghetti bologonse ever and asked if I wanted to eat there.

“How did you know Italian food, Spaghetti Bolognese in particular is my favourite?” Tom just tapped his nose as if to say `aah I know more than you think`. He took my hand for the gasillionth time that day to which I didn’t mind as I loved the way his hands fit in mine and escorted me to the restaurant where we enjoyed a content spaghetti bologonse lunch discussing his filming in Iceland and my work and writing, him still claiming he wanted to see some of my writing which I replied that he could if he came back to Amy’s later he could. He smirked at this. I blushed knowing exactly what he was thinking.

After we’d eaten and Tom had insisted on paying as he promised when he took me to dinner and infact paying for everything throughout the day as he said that today was my day and that it isn’t everyday he gets to surprise and treat a beautiful women like me. I smiled at this. He really is so sweet.

We hailed a taxi from Convent Garden Tom telling the destination to the driver without me hearing. I was excited yet nervous at the same time. I’d been waiting to see what the surprise was for weeks and now I was about to find out. Tom took my hand and smiled at me. I think he was nervous too hoping that id like it. We rode in silence stealing casual glances at each other and looking out at the streets of London.

London always seemed to be busy, lots of people walking across the road and to different destinations, lots of taxis and big red buses on the road going in different directions. I loved the hussle and bustle of London. Id never tire of it and would someday hopefully be included in it.

About half an hour later the taxi pulled up outside our destination. Tom paid the driver and told me to close my eyes. He got out of the taxi first taking my hand to help me out. The taxi drove off and Tom came up behind me putting his hands on my waist and whispering in my ear “You can open your eyes now darling. I opened my eyes and was met with the sign of the V&A. I then saw the Hollywood costume poster with the picture of Judy Garland as Dorothy in her blue checkered dress and red shoes and my face lit up. “Oh my god, oh my god, oh my god, Tom” I kept repeating. Tom laughed ehehe. “Surprise darling.” He said coming round to face me. “When I first took you out to dinner and saw how passionate you were about film and when I found out that they were doing this exhibition I had to take you. Surprised?” Words just wouldn’t form. I was speechless. Tom looked at me weary, “Darling are you ok? This is a good surprise isn’t it? I just kept looking at the poster. I’d read up on it and almost went and reviewed it for the blog. I was so glad I didn’t. I turned to Tom with a huge smile on my face. “Oh my god, Tom, this is amazing. I pulled him into a tight hug. “Ehehe we haven’t even entered yet darling” he said hugging me back, kissing me on the cheek and taking my arm before asking “Shall we, my dear?” I took his arm with a huge smile on my face before replying. “We shall”.

 
Chapter 8

Tom led me in through the double doors of the museum following the signs for the Hollywood Costume exhibition. I let go of his arm taking in my surroundings. Oh my god, Tom Hiddleston has brought me here! Tom realised I let go of his arm and stopped walking looking at me. I stood still taking in the beautiful scenery.

The V&A was a beautiful old building with a beautiful ceiling and floor decorated with tiles decorated in the shape of flowers. I felt like Elizabeth Bennett when she walks into Mr Darcy’s house in Pemberley, it was absolutely breathtaking. I couldn’t quite believe it. The museum was split into different sections with different exhibitions including an exhibition on ballroom gowns. It was also split into different countries with statues and certain pieces iconic to each country.

“You ok there darling?” Tom asked.

“This is absolutely breathtaking Tom, Thankyou so much” he chuckled “We haven’t even got into the exhibition yet darling”. He smiled then looked at his watch. “I don’t mean to rush you love but were booked for the exhibition at half past two and its now two fifteen.”

“Oh…right…sorry” I stuttered.

“That’s quite alright darling, come on” he held his hand out with a smile. I took it smiling back.

We continued to walk down the museum corridors following the signs for the Hollywood Costume exhibition. As we were nearing the exhibition a few young girls came up and asked Tom to sign pieces of paper and take photos with them, which he gladly agreed to. He let go of my hand to sign his autograph. They smiled at me but in my head I knew they were wondering who I was.

Once they were happy Tom took my hand again apologising and continuing on our way to the exhibition.

A few minutes later we were stood in a dark corridor with more Hollywood costume posters everywhere. A stewardess came over dressed in black trousers, a white shirt, black tie and blazer with her blonde hair tied into a ponytail.

“Ah, Mr Hiddleston, everything is set up for you, enjoy the exhibition”

“Thankyou Marie” Tom replied. I smiled at her, she smiled back.

“Ready darling?” Tom asked looking at me with a big smile on his face. I smiled back nodding and as Tom opened the doors to the exhibition I couldn’t quite believe my eyes.

I was expecting the room to be filled with people all looking at the exhibition but it was disserted. I looked at Tom. “I didn’t think you could really appreciate it if there were loads of other people here so I booked it just for you to really take in the experience and enjoy” I smiled hugging him. “Thankyou Tom”.

The room was dark with dim Hollywood lights and elegant music that just fit with the exhibition.

Walking in a montage of film clips from all different films were shown. Immediately I felt tears form in my eyes. Don’t let Tom see you cry, don’t let Tom see you cry! I didn’t quite realise how much the world of film and cinema meant to me until that moment and being here with Tom made it even more special.

Seeing all these costumes worn by some of the most famous actors and actresses in film was absolutely mind blowing. You don’t quite realise how much of an importance costume is in making a film until seeing it at something like this.

Tom looked over at me concerned as a few tears rolled down my face. Tom wiped them away with his thumb “Oh darling, I didn’t mean to make you cry, I thought you’d like it, im so sorry” Tom looked down at his shoes. I cupped his face in my hands begging for him to look at me.”Tom, look at me” when he finally did his eyes looked right into my soul.

“Thomas William Hiddleston you apologise for a lot of things and this certainly isn’t one of them. They’re happy tears”. He smiled at this. “Im absolutely overwhelmed, I didn’t quite realise how much film actually meant to me until now, and you have no idea. I can’t Thankyou enough Tom.” A few more tears rolled down my cheeks. Tom wiped them away leaning in for a kiss. I kissed him back with as much love and passion as I could muster. When we pulled away he kissed my hand taking me by the arm and escorting me round the exhibition.

The first part of the exhibition displayed costumes from films such as Gone with the Wind including the green dress Scarlett O Hara wore, the jacket Matt Damon wore in the Bourne films and the period costumes worn by Cate Blanchett in Elizabeth and the costumes worn by Joseph Fiennes and Gwyneth Paltrow in Shakespeare in Love. At this Tom bowed taking my hand and kissing it “Fair maiden”. I giggled curtsying in return “Kind sir”. He also took this opportunity to quote Romeo and Juliet.

Getting up from bowing Tom put his hands on my waist and in return I put my hands around his next before he began his monologue.

But soft what light through yonder window breaks

It is the east and Emily is the sun

Praise fair sun and kiss the envious moon

Who is already sick and pale with grief.

It is my lady, o it is my love

O that she knew she were

Oh my god Tom Hiddleston is quoting Romeo and Juliet to me. With Romeo and Juliet being my favourite Shakespeare play and having learnt it in school I recited the next few lines.

O Tom, Tom wherefore out though Tom. He laughed poking his tongue out. I raised my eyebrows at him before finishing my monologue ignoring the cute look on his face.

Deny thy father and refuse they name

Or at thou wilt not, be but sworn my love

And I’ll no longer be a Capulet.

At this Tom caught my lips with his smiling into the kiss. Tom pulled away and once again took my hand. I love how his hands fit in mine, id never tire of holding them, his long slender fingers wrapped around my hand.

The second part of the exhibition included sections dedicated to certain actors and the costumes they wore particular films including Meryl Streep and the costumes she wore in Mamma Mia, The Iron Lady and Out of Africa aswell as one of the costumes Johnny Depp wore in Sweeney Todd and the red dress Keira Knightley wore in Anna Karenina.

I stood there in shock, I still couldn’t believe I was here-I said to Tom that he should have had a section in here but he said that he wasn’t as famous as these amazing actors. It broke my heart to hear him say such a thing. I couldn’t quite believe what I was hearing. Here was the man who was so inspirational, so humble, such a talented actor that deserved all the Oscars and awards and has worked with the likes of Steven Spielberg and Woody Allen and saying that he wasn’t famous enough. He really has no idea how talented he is. It breaks my heart.

Walking into the final part of the exhibition my eyes automatically filled with tears again. As soon as I turned the corner and saw the little black dress Audrey Hepburn wore in Breakfast at Tiffany’s my hand flew to my mouth trying to stifle the tears that fell. Audrey was one of the many famous actresses I admired and seeing that dress, that famous black dress she wore throughout Breakfast at Tiffany’s and the dress I tried to recreate for my eighteenth birthday the emotion just got to me.

It got to me even more when I saw the feather dress Nicole Kidman wore in Moulin Rouge and the green dress Keira Knightley wore in Atonement I just completely lost it. Tom saw how much it meant to me purely by the way my eyes shone and how much my face lit up. I soon found myself wrapped up in his embrace his strong arms around me.

The tears kept on flowing making his leather jacket and grey t shirt wet. I pulled away after a while. “I`m so sorry, Tom you seem to see me cry a lot I feel so silly and look ive got your jacket and t shirt all wet”.

He looked right into my wet eyes seeing into my soul holding my face in his hands and wiping the last few tears away with his thumb.

“Darling no. I will not have you apologise for being as passionate as you are about the best thing in the world. This is why I do what I do, why I`m an actor because I enjoy, like many other actors to see the audiences reactions and how much of an effect characters and the story have on them. You getting upset and emotional just shows your passion and how much film means to you darling so I will not have you apologising ok?”

I smiled looking back into his eyes. “I’ve always loved film but even more so since I discovered your work, Tom, you have no idea how much of an inspiration you are, not just to me but to loads of other fans and people. You’re absolutely amazing Tom” he kissed my palm.

“Bless you for saying that my darling, you have absolutely no idea how much it means to me to be told that, its people like you and comments like those that make me want to continue acting, so Thankyou so much darling”. I stroked his cheek. He smiled kissing my hand and putting it through his arm.

“Come my lady, we still have the last past to look around”.

Also included in the exhibition were the pink suit Reese Witherspoon wore in Legally Blonde, the yellow dress Kate Hudson wore as Andie Anderson in How to loose a guy in 10 days plus the checkered dress Judy Garland wore in order to portray Dorothy.

Ofcourse you cant forget the white dress made famous by Marilyn Monroe in Some like it Hot and the tux worn by Daniel Craig in Casino Royale which Tom got a excited about with him being a huge bond fan. Quoting the famous “Im Bond, James Bond”. I laughed saying “No, you’re Hiddleston, Tom Hiddleston.”

“I can’t wait to see you in you’re tux. You know some of your fans have photoshopped pictures of you as Bond” I said casually regretting it as soon as I said it.

“Ooohh Really?” he said with a smirk.

“I can’t wait to see you in you’re tux I repeated again.”

“For your eyes only ehehe” this got us both in fits of giggles before Tom turned serious again and saying “And I cant wait to see you in your dress darling, you always look beautiful but you’ll look even more beautiful in your bridesmaids dress” I smiled taking one last look around the room before going back to reality.

Tom led me out of the exhibition and into the gift shop where I took yet more photos. I swear I was getting more and more like Amy with the whole taking photos everywhere I went. There was no way I couldn’t not take photos of this amazing day and my time in London. As we weren’t allowed to take photos in the exhibition I made the most of taking photos in the gift shop aswell as buying myself a book on Hollywood Costume, a postcard that read `film fanatic` and an oscar statue to present Tom with later.

I insisted that Tom let me pay for the book as he surprised me with today. He agreed with hesitation.

Once id bought the book and finished taking photos we went and got a cup of tea from the catering stand in the gardens.

I found a text from Amy whilst waiting for our teas that asked if I had a good time and if me and Tom wanted to meet up with her and Jay for dinner. I asked Tom and he said that would be nice. I text Amy back asking where to meet her and at what time before following Tom over to a table to sit and drink our tea.

We sat in silence for a while smiling at each other taking in the scenery of the gardens and what we had just experienced.

I started the conversation first. “I don’t know how to Thankyou for today Tom, I really don’t. It was absolutely incredible and just saying Thankyou really isn’t enough. It was a pleasure to meet you a few weeks ago, I didn’t think Id ever get to meet you and when I saw you at Amy’s I had to do a double to take to really believe it was you. I didn’t think id get to meet you let alone you come round and watch a film with me the same day and take me out to dinner the following evening and now im sat here with you drinking tea at the V&A after you’ve just taken me to see some of the most beautiful film costumes in the world. I mean yeah, im a huge fan of yours and still am but having gotten to know you as just Tom, rather than Tom Hiddleston the actor was so much nicer and meant so much more to me. you’re absolutely lovely to your fans but it was just so lovely to spend the day with you, as you, if that makes sense?” I took a breath and a sip of my tea before continuing. “You really are so lovely, so kind hearted and absolutely gorgeous I cant even put into words how honoured I feel to have spent the day with you and gotten to know you.” he smiled standing up and coming to kneel down infront of my so he could look into my eyes.

“As I said to you when I first met you back at Amy`s a few weeks ago, the pleasure is entirely mine my darling. As I said that’s part of the reason I enjoy what I do and if it wasn’t for the fans I wouldn’t be where I am today. But you, darling, I don’t see you as my fan, I see you as a friend…erm more than a friend actually…” he looked down at his shoes. I put my hand on his shoulder. “Tom,Tom look at me, what do you mean `more than a friend`? I had a pretty good idea I just wanted to see what he said.

He finally looked at me and continued. “Emily,darling, I know ive only known you a few weeks but I really really like you and im not just saying that because Amy is getting married and youre the maid of honour and I`m Jay`s best man and the maid of honour and best man are meant to cop off with each other.” He laughed nervously. “I genuinely want you on my arm at the wedding not just as my date but…as my girlfriend”. Oh my god what. Tom Hiddleston wants me to be his girlfriend??

“T…Tom” he cut me off before I could say anything.

“I know we haven’t known each other that long and that we barely know each other but I would really like to get to know you, everything about you and if you would give me this chance and let me prove to you that I will treat you right then I promise I will take things as slow as you like. I just really enjoy spending time with you and kissing you and if you give me a chance to prove my feelings to you I promise I will make you as happy as I possibly can. What do you say?” he got down on one knee “Emily, my lady, my darling will you do me the honour of being my girlfriend?” Oh my god oh my god oh my god Tom Hiddleston, THE Thomas William Hiddleston has just asked me to be his girlfriend!!!

“Darling?” he looked up into my eyes.

“Yes, Tom, Yes” I whispered leaning in and kissing him with as much passion I could. It wasn’t long before he was kissing me back, our tongues and teeth battling with each other. He pulled away after what felt like a few minutes but what felt like forever. I moaned at the loss of contact.

“Can I just stay attached to your lips forever?” I asked. He laughed throwing his head back and sticking his tongue out. Ehehe.

“As much as Id like to kiss you for the rest of the day darling we’ve got to go and meet Jay and Amy for dinner” Tom said.

He gave me one last kiss before getting off the ground and offering me his hand. “My lady”

“Why Thankyou my love” I smiled. I know id only known him for a few weeks but it just felt right, as though id known him forever. So natural. I means yes, I was still a fan but knowing Tom as just Tom was so much better.

He took hold of my hand and led me back through the museum out the exit and back onto the busy streets of London. Tom hailed a taxi escorting me in first and telling the driver the address of the restaurant we were to meet Amy and Jay at.

This was going to be a perfect evening to the end of a perfect day, dinner with my best friend, her fiancée and my boyfriend, Tom Hiddleston. Wow that was going to take a bit of getting used to.